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July 21, 2008 4:58am
The First Kiss It's your First Kiss and several questions come to mind: Is it the right time? Is anyone watching? Does your partner …
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carasmom’s Profile
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About Me
I'm married to a wonderful man. He's not perfect and neither am I so that makes us a perfect match. I'm a mother of 2 Cara and John... Cara died Oct 30, 2006, She is still my child, I am still her mama... John you know you're my favorite son... *Smile* I am grandma to 5... T'Ben, Elizabeth, Jonathan, Logan and Gabby... that's from oldest to youngest... so no arguing why your name isn't first... I feel very blessed to love and be loved by all my family... On earth and in heaven...
Interests
Family, Family, Family, people, changing things if I can, Music, musicals, live theater, pinochle, reading
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Recent Activity
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carasmom gave sybil a Hug 8:28am
I'm sorry I went back to bed for a bit... I wish I could have stayed there... can't seem to feel rested...…
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carasmom gave sybil a Hug 5:22am
They're somewhat gummy but clearing... sounds like our weather... gummy sounds about right for our humidity...…
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carasmom gave Katmac a Hug 5:21am
hopefully you're just very busy with your group... If you get a chance please stop by. Hugs Elissa…
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carasmom gave sybil a Hug 5:14am
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Journal Entry for July 20, 2008
July 20, 2008 6:55am
Good Morning... even to those of you not up... LOL I'm an early morning person... get a bit of something done... cleaned the stove and did …
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I Said A Prayer
July 18, 2008 5:01am
A friend sent this to me today and I read it and reread it again... I felt blessings and peacefulness... gratefulness that she cared and said this …
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NORMAL? I DON'T THINK SO......
July 15, 2008 8:30am
NORMAL... BAH... BEING NORMAL WOULD BE BORING...
BLESSED ARE THE CRACKED FOR THEY ARE THE ONES WHO LET IN THE LIGHT!
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Gentle Lessons of Life
July 11, 2008 2:16am
Gentle Lessons of Life
When I'm feeling down, I like to whistle. It makes the neighbor's dog run to the end of his chain …
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sorry you are not getting much rest...seems to come with the territory unfortunately. i went back to bed for a bit myself...planning on nap time this afternoon...hope this day is gentle with you...love you.
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Thanks, have a great weekend. Love Debbie
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thinking oh you and hoping your weekend is good. luv and hugs-Lauri
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it's cool and clear at the moment but about to get gummy again...that's a good way to put it...storms the next 3 days and hot again...and i don't do humidity!!
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good morning...thanks for telling me about the lady's experience, it is a comforting thought. sorry you have been having eye issues...hope you are doing well this morning. love you!
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Support Groups
Close Bereavement
Type: Loss of a ChildMy daughter Cara died October 30, 2006 and its rough. Cara's death was an accident... but it seems it was inevitable... Cara's life the last few months was controlled by her addiction... and it was like that final phone call was going to come... no matter how hard we tried... Its been hell...
Treatments
- Crying Somewhat Helpful
- I cry and cry.... the tears are always there waiting to spill over... Nothing will ever erase the pain but time is easing it...
- Getting Angry Somewhat Helpful
- sometimes to ease the pain you have to get mad...
- Grief Counseling Somewhat Helpful
- Was unalbe to keep going and its very hard going it alone... Cest la vie
- Keeping Busy Somewhat Helpful
- Writing, redirecting my thoughts, trying to count my blessings...
- Prayer Somewhat Helpful
- I try to pray but have become estranged from my church... I locked myself inside my home with my pain and my anger... Now I'm trying to get out...
- Reading Somewhat Helpful
- Sometimes I can't seem to be distracted but sometimes I can.... and that's mainly what I have to do...
- Remembering Somewhat Helpful
- Its a two edged sword.... sometimes its good... sometimes I end up crying helplessly....
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- Just knowing they love me helps... and needing to keep on for them because I love them... is important...
- Support Groups Somewhat Helpful
- My online support groups help a lot... Nothing will erase the pain... I think we just have to learn to live with it...
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- Writing is my talking... and it helps...
- Time Somewhat Helpful
- As much as it can time helps...
Close Bipolar Disorder
problems with depression and anxiety since my teens... I've been lucky had some great counselors & educational opportunities that allowed me to accept and stand up for myself in ways I would have never thought I could. I'm dealing with the death of my daughter and I'm not doing so hot but I have tools that I know enough now to help myself... I'm 50 now so I've lived long enough to help myself and maybe you too
Open Depression
Dx bipolar... fact: I am somewhat - far worse times with depression. It can be hell made a good connection with a counselor and education doing fairly well. Since I've been unofficially encouraged to leave depression supporters I'm here... Honesty compels me to admit I suggested first maybe it wasn't the place for me... ty lightholder I followed through and removed depression supporters from my list of communities..I honestly think I can help others and myself through my experiences.
Treatments
- Effexor Not Working
- the dr who prescribed effexor was so enthusiastic about it I found it difficult to tell him that it was one of the worst meds I'd ever taken and finally dropped it ama
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- years of counseling finally a solid connection with Ms Francis who taught me to stand up for myself she told us over and over we need to stand beside and for ourselves
- Xanax Working / Worked
- helpful on a prn basis for me
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
50 years old... memories can still hurt me. I hesitate to join this community worry... family members will be angry at me for airing family stuff. I find I want to help others more than I want to worry about those family members who might find out and be angry with me. Even though I've written some about my childhood and the abuse mostly I've kept it to myself. What happened as a child has affected every facet of my life and will continue to. I just have to work around it the best I can.
Treatments
- Abuse Counseling Somewhat Helpful
- I function just not terribly well. I believe I had the self confidence beaten out of me years ago... and there's no fixing it.
Open Infidelity
Reading the definition of infidelity some folks would say I don't belong here... but I know how one thing leads to another...
Treatments
- Crying Too Soon to Tell
- I'm sad and I'm mad and I don't know which emotion is strongest. I saw where my husband had joined a senior partner group. read his profile... legally separated... OH???
Open Sexual Abuse
Like too many kids adults took advantage of my natural need for love and approval... For years I blamed myself...
Treatments
- Talking Working / Worked
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