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Melancholy Mood
Thursday, July 17, 2008

Last night I didn't sleep that well.  I didn't get to sleep until almost 1 a.m.   My wife was up with a panic attack this morning.  She was asking detailed questions about finances, detailed questions about how I could want to abandon my family.  I told her that finances weren't great and we could sit down together over the weekend and go over everything.  I told her I'm not trying to abandon anyone, it's just that a change in life is needed.  We'll have long conversations over the weekend I'm sure.  Good thing I've started the anti-depressants................also, I'll need breaks..... I have to remember she is still in an earlier phase of this process, as I have had a lot of time to think through my thoughts and actions.  I won't be able to get her to understand completely and I will focus on moving forward and helping her with the things she needs and accepts help with (not psychologically though). Each day is a new day.  Each day is a gift, and sometimes that gift is wrapped in pain, but the gift is learning or knowledge or some sort of treasure we don't understand.................yet.

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  1. angeleyes92

    sorry you didnt sleep well, i totally understand that. your mind isnt wanting to shut down because of everything.

    you are being more than helpful with things and i hope the wife realizes that. she should be grateful that you havent just walked out and left her hanging.

    hope you get some rest soon, hang in there


    angeleyes92

  2. BeautyforAshes

    big hugs...sorry you didnt' sleep well.....

    God bless...


    BeautyforAshes

  3. Vikkie1

    i agree with angeleyes, your wife is sovery lucky you haven't just walked away from her and left her to come to terms with it all by herself. You are caring and kind and deserve to be free of the pain this is causing you.
    hope you get some peaceful moments where you can rest. big hugs


    Vikkie1

  4. stillcruzn

    Ok your wife has her faults and Lord knows she is far from perfect but having been on the receiving end of this once I do not agree with the ladies on this one. I wouldn't be thinking I was at all lucky and I certainly wouldn't be greatful for anything at this point in time. Regardless of the person she is, she is hurting deeply and realising her world is crumbling down around her and she can do little to stop it and yes she is way behind you in the grieving process but she won't be greatful for anything at the moment and I've said it before, I couldn't stand to be around my ex when he told me as I felt great rejection, but that's me and we are all different I know. Sorry ladies, we don't often disagree but on this one we do.


    stillcruzn

  5. newguy2008

    I think it is natural that she will get angry with me here shortly.............she is feeling rejection............so once it really hits home, she will probably react differently. It is hard for both of us, and understandably so.


    newguy2008

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