XmusicismylifeX's Journal

grr i am so stressed out at the moment it is unbelivable. i havent cut in 14days if i make it through today. but i cant cope with it any longer i dont feel any better for it in fact i feel worse. i have stopped for 9months before but that was when i had my little sisyer to keep me going ut know i will never see her again and i miss her so much, i just wish i could see her face one last time and tell her how much i love her and promise her i will never forget her and just give her one last godbye kiss, but no that will never happen. my dad is such an arsehole he doesnt care how this is all affecting me all he cares about is winning his pathetic little mind games..well he is fuckin suceeding. my social worker asked him for a photo of my sister over 2months ago now and he still hasnt responded so not only will i never see her in person again i wont even get to know what she looks like now. she was only 18months old last time i saw her and babies change so rapidy she will be totally different now and i bet she doesnt even remember me. she is going to grow up not even knowing who i am. hmm this isnt helping sorry