fedupfibro's Journal

Today I feel sleepy,Its 4:00 a.m and i am having a hard time sleeping. I have to work in the a.m but only for 3 hours.Ihate it when this happends because I hve to deal with the public...well My "friend" that I have been dating since xmas is going to bike week in daytona florida and has asked me to go along...the only problem is that I cannot drive down that far in his car,<by the way its a mercedes>so pretty comfortable but not driving for 24 hours.I wont be able to get out of it,and I would maybe probably get sick...so He is putting up the money for a plane ticket and flying me there! I am having mixed feelings about going.I am PSYCHED! Because single mommy hasnt had a vacation without her kids in 16 years...But I am just anxiety about what if"s ya know? like what if he wants to go for a 8 hour ride downn to key west with everyone and I cant or dont feel well..thats gonna suck I just dont want to dissapoint him,I will try and have a talk with him before we leave and "try" to explain to him what fibro is all about...his daughter has it and he just thinks its a big scam to not work..He is a very successful business man<oil> and is a workaholic. He has had the flu for a week straight and I hvent seen him in a whole week,lol...but I didnt want to catch the flu ya know?but he continued to go home and rest for like an hour and then go get up and go back to work..he just pushes and pushes..maybe I should tell him that the prescription I am giving him for this trip is to relax! he had a heart attack 1 year ago ,so he DOES need to slow down and also he has gout really bad sometimes.so hopefully he wont have a flare up ,but if he does we wont be crusing that much...lol... any advice on my anxiety? I really want to make an appt with my doc before I leave and <he hates to give out narcotics>but If I have them with me and I start to hurt I would liike to have that option, I really want to believe that he will change his mind and give me some vicodine and lorazapam and also some muscle relaxers. that should take me through my trip-SORRY THIS IS SO LONG BUT ANY ADVICE ON HOW TO ASK MY DOCTOR FOR THE MEDS TO BRING ON MY TRIP? AGAIN..."anxiety" thanks fedupfibro<Pamie>