brokenkat's Journal

This week has been soo busy!! It is unbelievable! My H and I are really in a good space right now which is totally awesome and totally God led..He's not a believer but I can see God working in him. His heart is softening. My hope is that through love and forgiveness he can experience Christ's love and forgiveness. I am also hoping he can meet up with other Christians some how. At least he is hanging out with different people and actually has a social life which is really a good thing...difficult for me at times to totally trust him...I think I'll be struggling with that for a long time, he hasn't given me any new reason not to trust him, it's just my new found insecurities in him. But things are going well with us. I'm kinda bummed today off and on though because it is Mother's day and this would have been my first Mother's day as a mom had I not miscarried last year. This weekend was really really busy for me which helped me not deal with my feelings (not necessarily a good thing) but I did have a few moments of weakness today during worship in church and then at a small group meeting tonight during prayer. It's frustrating because I had "gotten over it" and was in a really space, and still am, it just brings me down a bit this weekend from time to time. I don't want to sound doom and gloom because God is doing wonderful things for me and has blessed me so much. Things are really looking up and hope has returned. I'm laughing daily and really starting to be able to help others and not focus on me. So I am doing well. Just get down from time to time.