ace1981's Journal

well things are still crazy .
my husband doesnt know what he wants and i am scared everyday that i am gana loos him .
every one keeps telling me to just let him go.
but i don't want to i want him in my life i am trying to change and i know i have to change even if me and my husband don't stay together i know if i ever want a relationship to last there are some things about me i have to change.
i just wish i could get my husband to believe that i truly want to change but nothing i say or do seams to work all i ever do is piss him of one way or another.
i wish i new he would come back but i don't part of me feels like he is never coming back but part of me hopes he will what hurts the most is he isn't wearing his wedding ring any more he took it of the day i threw him out and he has never put it back on every time i look at him and don't see that ring it hurts like some one in stabbing a knife in my chest.
and i have tolled him this and he still keeps it off.