is feeling Good
Is now dating an awesome guy!
I am a 22 year old college student. I love music, movies, and spending time with people that are close to me. I have been going through a lot lately, but God has been getting me through it.
June 24, 2008 8:40pm
The majorty of the time I am completely okay. I can think straight, I am happy, and I feel totally normal again. But then the creeping …
Wanted to let you know taking back my life will be shutting but you can join our new group here http://dailystrength.org/groups/su...
I have started a New Support Group if you want to have a look around you are most Welcome http://dailystrength.org/groups/ta...
congratulations on your date!
Way to join--make sure you keep coming around. :)
Welcome to DS!Just stoppin by to show some love nd give u a huge hug! Hope all is well with u nd here if you need an ear. Melissa
I was born with cataracts. My parents noticed when I started running into tables as a toddler. So I had to grow up wearing glasses until I was old enough to get a surgery on both eyes to remove my cataracts, which were attached to the lenses in my eyes - so they had to remove both. So after I had this surgery when I was in second grade, I had to wear bifocal glasses until high school that made my eyes look "huge" according to other people. After that, I started wearing contacts.
After going through a lot of family problems and abuse growing up, depression has been something that I struggle with so much now. Some days it is easier to deal with, but it is a constant uphill battle every day. Luckily I have a lot of support, but some days I get tired of dealing with it. For a while I was suicidal and cut, but I don't do that anymore. I am growing and getting through the tough stuff I guess.
I grew up with a lot of emotional abuse in my family. Everyone seemed angry all of the time and had to have "control" over my sister and I. A lot of things that were said to me wore me down until I had very low self esteem and was just used to not standing up for myself. I basically took the road where you turn numb and just take it. But I don't live there anymore.
I don't want to say a lot, but this is what I went through when I was younger. It has damaged me sometimes to where I feel like I am beyond repair. But I am on the road to recovery. Thanks to God and many friends that are helping me, but the daily battle is beyond difficult.
For the past few years, I have gone through a lot of anxiety problems. I worry about little things until they become huge problems and I have to calm down intensely before I can deal with them. Anxiety has caused problems in my relationships and in every part of my life. It is an ongoing battle, but I am getting better.
Ever since I have been dealing with anxiety and depression related to abuse I endured, I get panic attacks whenever I get a bad memory from the past, encounter too much stress that builds up, or a sudden new situation. I shake, can't breath, gasp over and over, get dizzy, and can't concentrate.
I have set a goal for myself so many times to lose weight, but because of anxiety and depression I suffer it is hard for me to get on my feet and actually DO it. I tried eating less and just eating healthy, along with exercising by running. Hopefully I will get on the right road and be able to focus enough to do this.
