carol61's Journal

This is my first entry.

Well I am supposed to go to my sons second surgery to remove some plates from his arm, because of a bike accident involving his dad. But dad has sucked every bit of love out of my son for me because he is evil, the devil incarnate. I have always been there for him, but I have always known he is a user.

Konner, my son, has always gone to who could give him the most, and with the hate that his dad has towards me...well guess where he sucked up too.

Am in fear of my life with my ex, feel that one day he will hurt me, would not be the first time. Hope that god can protect me but know that he is helpless against such evil.

Have not been perfect in my life and always ask god to make me a better person and forgive me for my sins...but seems this evil is winning....have to pull through, cant let it get to my oldest and youngest child. My kids are my life and can survive as long as I have my other two.