I had to go away for a little bit
August 3, 2008 8:14pm
Hello to all that read this.
I am sorry I have not been on as much as I should. I had to go away for a little while, but I'm back, …
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ATL1973
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About Me
I don't like talking about myself, but here goes. I'm a 34 yr old man. Single and no kids. I am retired/disabled, although by looking you would never be able to tell. I am an outdoors kind of guy, and enjoy working on my house and property. I know it's not much info, but I am a rather gaurded person but I am also honest and fair so if you want to know more just ask
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some weekend
July 14, 2008 4:58pm
Wow.
It was another sad and eye opening weekend. I have no time now, but tonite..the journal will be on call. I was pushed so hard emotionally this …
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Journal Entry for July 8, 2008
July 8, 2008 4:52pm
"I can deal with the ALONE, It is the LONELINESS that kills …
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Pain, hurting and loneliness
July 8, 2008 4:47am
I should be writing more. Maybe it would help me more. But I am afraid it will just seem like rambling. Then I feel guilty, because I was …
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Time to say sorry
June 23, 2008 11:25pm
I really messed up yesterday. It was a really bad day for me, breakdowns and attacks came from everywhere yesterday. When I got a letter …
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Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI am kind of gaurded about some things until I get comfortable, but I have PTSD. I also get some of my depression stemming from divorce, lack of support system, and self image issues. I am not one to just "put it all out there" right away. If you have any questions feel free to as, I am usually better 1 on 1
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- V.A. doctors....always changing the meds, I think they hear me, but don't listen to me.
- Seroquel Not Working
- Took this for about 2 years, did not like it, made me a zombie, slept all the time, gained weight
- Support from Friends & Family Not Working
- What support???????
- Wellbutrin Working / Worked
- currently taking. I think it works, but somedays, no matter how well it's working....It does'nt feel like it's working.
- Writing Considering
- I am thinking of starting this just so I have something to leave behind so others might know what I was/am going thru.
- Zoloft Not Working
- Made me mean
Close Bisexuality
I am 34 and single male. I lve women and evrything about them, but for about the past 10 years I have desires for the same sex. I don't want intimacy with men but more like hang out, have sex see you later. I was raised in a small tow with a family that does not look well upon this kind of thing, so maybe this will give me an outlet to talk and meet others that feel the same.
Open Breakups & Divorce
I am divorced, almost 3 yrs. now, and deep down I want to be with someone and have afully committed relationship and possibly even get married again. But my issues give me problems whenever I meet someone, things go great for a bit, but then something inside me sets me up an it just seems to jinx things. Not sure what to do but I am beginning to feel like I am destined to be alone the rest of my life. ANY help would be great.
Treatments
- Couples Counseling Not Working
- Did not work, she never talked and was determined to get a divorce.
- Forgiveness Somewhat Helpful
- I tell myself its working, but then I start to brew on it and get angry all over again
- Love Considering
- I want to....I really do.
- Pets Somewhat Helpful
- I am getting used to the alonepart, its the lonliness that kills me...my dog helps curb that a little
- Support from Friends & Family Not Working
- what support....they liked her
- Support Groups Working / Worked
- well thats why i am here.
- Time Working / Worked
- a broken and humiliated heart takes time to heal
Open Sex / Pornography Addiction
I am alittle shy about this, I will write mre when I a little more comfy. Until then, feel free to ask me anything.
Open Veterans
I m a Marine Corps vet. But it is sometimes difficult for me to talk about it because I was only in for a year. I was hoping to be in longer...alot longer but after arriving at my first duty station I was in an accident and was honorably discharged under medical conditions. I get feelings of failure and altho they don't say anything, I get feelings of disappointment from family members. although I am no longer in the marines....I feel it still inside me.
Open Shyness
Treatments
- DailyStrength Too Soon to Tell
- Pets Not Working
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Self-esteem Not Working
- what self esteem?
- Self-help Not Working
- Socializing Not Working
Open Diets & Weight Maintenance
I am rated 100% disabled/unemployable by the VA. I can't work, and I try to excercise as much as poss. and watch my diet, but it is either real slow or not working. Because of it, it intesifies my depression and helped give me diabetes. I am at my wits end.
Treatments
- Counting Calories Too Soon to Tell
- Eating Healthier Foods Too Soon to Tell
- just started
- Eat Less Somewhat Helpful
Open Bereavement
Type: Loss of a ChildI lost my son in October 0f 2000. He was only 26 weeks along. My wife(now my X wife) never wanted to deal with it or talk about. I was raised in a house where you do not show emotions. After his burial, no one in my family talks about it or even mentions it. I held him, I said good bye and almost 8 yrs. later it still hurts, he is the only subject that can make me cry, The ex took almost everything we had to remember him. I still blame me for his death. will I ever get past/thru this?
Treatments
- Crying Somewhat Helpful
- He is the only thing that can instantly bring me to tears, am I wrong to put it in the back of my mind so I do not cry?
- Getting Angry Somewhat Helpful
- Grief Counseling Somewhat Helpful
- did not really work. it was a group, and I felt out of place.
- Keeping Busy Somewhat Helpful
- I try to keep my mind busy so I can somewhat function.
- Prayer Not Working
- I blame me for not being able to do more, I blame god for letting it happen!!
- Remembering Somewhat Helpful
- My X, his mother, and I go to his grave together for his birthday, I go on holidays and Fathers day. It is so hard to go, but I try.
- Support from Friends & Family Not Working
- what support?
- Support Groups Too Soon to Tell
- Thats why I am here
- Talking Not Working
- No one wants to talk about it. Like it never happened.
- Time Working / Worked
- It has been 8 years, It still seems to hurt no less.
Open Healthy Sex
I think sex is healthy but can be abused and addictive. I would love to have a good healthy relationship with honest healthy sex life
Treatments
- Patience Too Soon to Tell
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