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Monday, June 9, 2008

Well, Its very strange for me.

I went to my doctor to get new antydepresant and told him my story, (he wanted, I didnt).He adviced me to find some support group to help me with my problems.

I thought I was just sad and unhappy and obsessed with my look and dieting and thats it. But he told me I should think whats happend in my past and there was the reason of my behavior. Probably I ve got bulimia and I still donot bolive that, I am depressed all the time and I hate the way how I look when I do not exercise and I eat.

When I was 13 my father came to visit me in my country and he stayed there for 6 months. He sexual abused me and nobody knew that. Ialways thought its something wrong with me and thats why I am who I am.

But the doctor told me there are not any pills on this world which could help me with my problems and I should start talking with people , who had bad experience and share with them my feelings.

I though I just forgot whats happend and I do not need think about it anymore and I am still confussed.

I make a lot of spelling mistakes but its not my language. Its not exuse and I will try better.

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You poor thing, back in college I was a psychology minor and I do know that talking with others helps. You might be a good candidate for cognitive therapy. Has anyone mentioned that to you? Kim

reddutchgirl
Hon, I will pm you tomorrow...I went through a very similar experience,as a child, and only therapy has helped me to sort things out and get my life back again.You are not as alone as you feel--I promise you.I have been near there,many others have,too, Big hugs to you,and I'll write you soon--Caitrin.

Kaitrin