is feeling OK
sittin' in the grass...waitin' on my rainbow
I am a uni student and work part-time in management within the cosmetic industry though I'm looking for a great positive change in my career & My life!! Despite my hardships in life and relationships-I try to remain positive. I am currently trying to re-build my confidence within an abusive relationship and deal with physical insecurities, I know it will take time to see that I am beautiful within and out-!! I do have the most amazing family & the best girls I could ever ask for in my life! I try everyday to allow their love to keep me going!!Everyday is a challenge to feel normal and ahppy again- As of April I lost my best friend at the hands of her abusive common-law husband! I miss her everyday and every hour she comes to mind! I cant eat and often cant sleep. Right now I feel weak and I have to try and remind myself- how blessed I actually am!
**Travel...I used to be so adventurous-- I'm looking forward to gettin' away at the end of the month- sometimes you have to be out of your element to see your true self!! **Dance... I used to dance with a Ballet Company many years ago and I somedays miss it! I hope in the Fall I can get back to it! Music... I love it live! **Shopping... I guess retail therapy is a quick fix, but sometimes it helps to look good- and temporarily feel good.
July 22, 2008 11:35pm
sometimes
I feel
my heart fall
to vague depths between
words there
are such
spaces that
I can't help
but feel
My Heart
fall between
the pregnant pause
of …
July 10, 2008 11:39pm
you don't call
I check again-
I become uneasy-
is this a frame?
suddenly I'm not so sure
I checked my sources
each conversation …
June 30, 2008 2:08pm
Ahh the Sun... so bold!
it does more for me then simply warm my bones and bronze my skin
it gives me a sense of new-found positivity
an outlook of …
June 26, 2008 9:47pm
i'm writing
this letter to tell you
I don't love you anymore.
I don't miss you.
I never have.
Thr truth is, I
tried, …
I have recently lost my best friend to the sad and vicious act domestic violence... it has left me feeling so empty and hopeless! Everyday I am coping to stay strong alone- since I've left my boyfriend whom also has abusive tendacies.
I recently left my boyfriend whom for a year has been phyiscally and verbally abusive- especially when under the influence of cocaine alcohol. I'm saddened and sicken since my best friend was killed by her common-law husband in April. I feel so alone with out her and wished I would have been able to help her get out!
My best friend was murdered. Everyday I miss her & despite moments of relief from my anxiety and depression... I fear that this is only the beginning of my pain!
