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Ovulating Kits
Sunday, July 20, 2008 | A Frustrating story

I bought some ovulating kits on Friday night and so far, nothing. What the hell? Am I ever going to be ready? According to the calculations, I should be ovulating already. I told myself I would never buy those kits and here I am, in all my desperation buying them and testing myself. Geez, whats wrong with me. I'm so desperate to be pregnant again, my arms are so empty.  I feel like my body is failing me. Has anyone had any luck with those tests? I wonder just how accurate they are anyway.  No matter when I test or whatever, it really is not up to me when or if I get pregnant, its all in gods hands. I need to stop thinking I have control over anything because in all reality, I dont. It is god who will make things happen on his time.  God please help me through this confusing, frustrating, sad, depressed, dark time I am in. I need your help to stay strong and to be a positive person like I once was. These days, I dont know what kind of person I am or just who i am anymore. I feel like I'm losing it totally.

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1. 

   I share the same frustration with Ovulation Kits. We got pregnant on the first try with our son. I'd never even heard of OPK's, but now because of the loss I've turned into a Fertility Monitor, OPK testing, temp taking fool. It's totally insane!

   
   

   lisahash

2. 

   Hugs Hon. I did this for a few months as well. I finally came to the conclusion that it was adding to my emotional stress (when I was already maxed out!) I think your exactly right...put it in God's hands, have faith and pray. It may take time but he will answer. Your not "loosing it", your grieving and rightfully so. Take your time and take care of yourself. HUGS, your not alone. Love Tori

   
   

   EML20WKS

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