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Confused

Wednesday, June 11, 2008 | A Rambling story

Well it is now Wednesday. I am sitting here in this house not knowing what to do. I had a funeral to go to over the weekend. ALL, of our mutual friends were there. It was very awkward for me. That is the first time I have been around all of them since the divorce. There have been (3), of "our", friends tat have completely supported me, the rest of them have made comments like, "maybe she is going through menopause", or "mid life crisis", or "I think she has a boyfriend", there was even a e-mail sent out to my ex that I left him for his friend that he has known for 36 yrs. Why? Why? All of that is so far from the truth. All of these people know how he was, they saw it every weekend. They were the people that we hung out with. All the guys even got togeter (without my ex) and talked about how worried they were about me, because they had seen how much worse he had gotten. Than there is my family. My gosh!!! My Dad is the only one that will have anything to do with me. I am getting better at dealing with it, BUT it really hurts me. I can't call any of my sisters and tell them how things are with me. I am having back surgery and it will be one of my friends with me at the hospital and home to help me. NOT any of my family. Of course my x is bugging the crap out of me to give it another chance. And I don't even want to look at him. Well guess I will take my dog for a walk.

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I'm sorry I too have been there I kind of wish I had had one of my friends instead of my Mom she is very critical and drives me nuts I think she is getting dementia. I have had two surgeries and a broken tailbone as well as a bunch of other crap since february and on top of that been dealing with divorce and not being able to work and the rumors that were told about me to "our" friends were much much worse so I don't have any advice but I understand.

smaguire