marzo1ke’s Profile

Close Self-Injury

I am a recovering cutter. I started when I was 12 years old, I am now 20. I have had a life threating scare which made me really want to seek out help. I grew up manic depressive, and very suicidal. My most suicidal times was from 8th grade to sophmore year of high school. I now have borderline personality disorder and am a low level of being bipolar. It is hard to keep friends, the ones I have now don't know anything about my illnesses and aren't very open to talk about it...

Treatments

Psychotherapy Working / Worked

Having a thereapist is something i hated the thought of. But i found a younger woman named nikki who helps me through alot of what i have gone through. Having someone to talk to and vent your feelings to without feeling judged**is one of the most important and helpful ways of recovering.

Red Marker Not Working

doesn't satisfy the craving for the adrenalin rush of pain.

Rubber Bands Not Working

personally, cutting for me needed to be a visual experience as well. rubberbands didn't draw blood therefore it was more tempting for me to keep doing it until my skin broke.

Squeezing Ice Not Working

same as the rubber bands...

Tattoos Considering

I'm looking for a tattoo to show my experience... please leave ideas!!!

Close Pancreatitis

I had acute pancreatitis when I was18 years old from extreme alcohol abuse my freshman year at college. I was in the hospital for 2 weeks and just ducked under a severe surgery, It changed my life.