Kristinax54's Journal

I've had a horrible past few weeks...a lot of strain in my life, changes, hard times which lead me to self medicate with alcohol daily. Then my panic attacks came back whenever I wasn't drunk, one day so bad that my arms and legs went numb and I was sure I was going to die. I had to miss work because of it. So I went to the doctor and she prescribed me paxil......what hell that was. After 3 days of not being able to eat, sleep, feeling nauseous, weak, vertigo, completely out of it, I decided I wasn't going to take the paxhell anymore. After day 2 my body went through withdrawls, my panic attacks were back and I had to take Xanax just to get through work. My  panic attacks always happen at work it seems. I'm a barista where I have to talk to people all day long and it makes me panic. I believe I have agoraphobia. I only feel safe at home, I don't like going out in public anymore not even to the store. I don't know what to do I just want to be normal again. I hate this feeling, I hate being drugged up all the time. I just want my life to be back to normal.

I've been trying to eat foods that boost my serotonin, taking b12 vitamins 2000 mcg a day hoping it will all help. There has to be an answer to this I need to be able to get over this on my own so I can live a normal life again.