sarrah33's Journal

feel so ill today, huge HUGE sugar hangover, everytime i move my tumy churns and i feel super ill, aahh! i hate binge recovery.

so i binged ALL day sunday, the minute i woke up i knew i would, i was so hungover from drinks with friends saterday night and when im hungover i have massive appetite and ate shity food from morning til about 10 or 11pm. then i had an awful sleep, the sugar must have messed with me coz i tossed and turned all night and was really dehydrated. so today i feel extra yuk, sux!!

i was so gutted because i did so well not binging on saterday day/night.

when i went out with friends we shared a few hot chips and i ate a couple of squares of chocolate which didnt set me off at all and i was really proud of myself, and when i got home late in the night drunk and all over the place i ate cereal out of the box and went to sleep instead of stopping in at mcdonalds or the 24hour shop close by which i ALWAYS do when im drunk and hungry haha.

but then sunday morning i just knew i wanted greasy and sugary hangover food.

i started out the day with cereal and felt ok, knowing that i could indulge in a few things as i had been good all week, and thought i really would be able to stop when i wanted.

but then i just started snacking here and there and it got worse and worse and sudenly i was tasting everything, having bits of all the things i stay away from during the week, i just kept snacking and didnt stop, then i had the bright idea of doing some baking so made a chocolate slice with extra sugar and butter in the recipe.....

i took a break from eating mid day, brushed my teeth and blobed infront of the tv and thought i was over the binge but then got hungry again acouple hours later, have no idea how i could have still been hungry as the morning alone contained huge amounts of eating!

i dont know wats wrong with me but the binging me turned to an almost rebellion against my healthy dieting me, i added unnesesary amounts of buter and sugar to everything i ate and just ate crap for the hell of it, i didnt even want chocolate but just kept eating it even when i was so close to puking because my stomach was huge and hurting.

i listed everything i ate and the calories must be well over 5000 or 6000? thats 3 or 4 days of a normal female diet intake. which is so sick as i can sometimes go eating just 100 to 200 calories in a day, i am seriously messed up with my eating. why cant i just indulge in hangover food without going insanely overboard!!

so for anyone reading this if you wana hear how discustingly greedy i was heres my binge journal, hope it makes some people feel better about thier binges atleast!

2 bowls cereal

1x toast with thick serving of butter and peanut butter

large container of pringles chips (780 calories alone!)

2 muesli bars

2 choc chip cookies 

bowl wedges covered in melted cheese and bbq sauce 

2 big slices of chocolate slice

2x chocolate bars

half of a family chocolate block

2 small bags caramel popcorn

handful of skittles

bag of gummy candy

roast chicken and roast potatoes/vegies drizzled thickly in oil, with heaps gravy made from the fats of the chicken!

bowl of icecream

2 slices of berry tart 

yulk yuk YUK!!!

no wonder i feel so ill today.

it was so good being binge free for a week but now im at the botom again :(

im to tired and yuk feeling to be super stressed about the calorie intake and weight gain at the moment but have a feeling i'l end up restricting all week which i hate, im going to go to the gym tonight aswell.

i really want to be able to enjoy drinks with friends without it definately resulting in junkfood binging, then next test is coming up the weekend next, my friends are having a dressup party, there will be drinking, and probably for me there will be binging to!

hmmmm... its so anoying! grrr!!!!

ive had 2 days of hangovers, sunday=booze hangover, today= sugar hangover

 and its all self-inflicted!