cookiegurl’s Profile

Open Sexual Abuse

I was molested by my paternal Grandfather.Has affected me deeply over the years feel like it was my fault and has affected every part of my life.Feel like i'm dirty ,not a good person.Don't feel like I can talk to anyone that understands how I feel.Would like to share and support other child abuse survivor's.Anybody who can offer some much needed assistance and advice would greatly apperciate any.

Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder

I was diagnosed 1n 1990 at the age of 20.I had a very painful lonely childhood.Was very isolated and experience rejection from both my father and Mother.Mother was a chronic marrier and would marry the worst of the worst and would let them abuse and mistreat us.She chose men over me and my sister all the time and even got me out of the house because one of her husband's didn't like me.Would pay ppl to put me up in their homes.At 16 was living with a stranger she found out of the newspaper.

Treatments

Psychotherapy Working / Worked

Reading Working / Worked

Supportive Care Working / Worked

Klonopin Working / Worked

Helped me tremendously with feelings of anxiety.I had such a distrust of ppl that couldnt function normally around ppl because I had never been properly socialized as a child and had been abused and rejected by both mother and father.Helped stabilize my mood.Still have issues regarding my childhood and dont think it will ever go away completely but it is manageable today.

Open Depression

I have suffered from depression since I was 11 yrs old and it got progressively worse as I got older.My psych at the time said 80% of my depression was environmental due to an extensive background with child abuse and abandonment issues.Can totally relate to having to "force" myself to do things.It sucks and I lack motivation and feel sleepy and listless alot and I guess having active and chronic RA doesn't make things any easier.So glad there's support for other's that are suffering depression.

Treatments

Effexor Working / Worked

Elevated my bp.Made me feel like I was on Speed-Hated It!

Elavil Working / Worked

Made me want to sleep 24/7

Lexapro Working / Worked

Same as effexor-ugh hated it

Wellbutrin Working / Worked

worked somewhat made me jittery though

Open Obesity

Open Rheumatoid Arthritis

I first got symptoms of RA in April 1998. Didn't know at the time what it was but knew it was something serious.Started one morning very suddenly woke up with a red-swollen right knee that I couldn't bend.The pain subsided but always returned in the knee's then went to my shoulder's,hands,finger's & feet.Got formally dx in 2000.Waited to get treatment(big mistake) thankfully not too much damage except I did get the RA nodule's and have had 2 surgerie's to remove them from my finger's.

Treatments

Arava Not Working

was not well tolerated and considering the serious side-effects decided to try enbrel.

Enbrel Working / Worked

This has been a miracle drug for me if I miss a dose-My body will feel it and then gets better as soon as I take it .Although I hear the body plateaus from the drug at some point.

Methotrexate Considering

Was prescribed and have the pills in hand just waiting to hear more and then I will decide.

Prednisone Working / Worked

I don't like the this med for obvious reasons(weight gain),ect,but for really bad flare's it's also a miracle drug for me and so thankful for it.

Flexeril Not Working

Had used in the pastDidnt like made me feel like all I wanted to do was go into a deep sleepToo strong for my body also gained a significant amount of weight on thisHavent used for a cpl years now.Wouldnt ever take it again or Elavilsame reaction and results