pindy's Journal

these last 4 days ive been struggling with life, i keep asking myself god is this what life is all a bowt heartache, i know that life is what you make it, but lately i have been trying to do things and go some where in life but i keep getting knocked back and its all down too i dont know how too let my feelings out i have kept them in for years but im now beginning too feel bad within myself and i also dont think it healthy too keep thing in, i feel lik im in a cage and i want to break free, i know deep down my mum would want me to be happy and life life to the max its just so damm hard to move on and except that they r not here, its hard knowing that your mum isnt there to see you get married and grow up etc, mabye thats why i really dont want to do the thing in life that i really want to do does that make sense????????????? i am so scared of failing in life cause i know i have no1 too pick up the pieces, i know that i have got alot too give in life and there is alot i want to do too but when i try to go forward i cant!!!!!!!!!!! this song describes how i feel    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TBO6_u6Mb6s