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I was raised in a dysfunctional family & I've had issues with anxiety & depression most of my life. I've been doing very well lately. I've tried medication, therapy, exercise, and read many self help books & books on spirituality. They were all useful in their own way. What's helped most was counselling with a good therapist, and the knowledge I gained from a few great writers. As a child I learned a lot of unhealthy ways of coping with life's events. I started to find ways to escape reality. I learned to avoid things that caused anxiety, and to be critical and judgemental of myself and others, and very negative in general. That's how I've lived most of my life. Through therapy & reading I've learned that that was basically the root of my problems, and that it could be changed, but I was the only person who could change it. Once I realized that I was the one responsible for my own anxiety and depression I decided I would change it. It's not easy, but it is possible. I can see now that it is much better to live in the present rather than the past or future, or try to escape reality. I used to always re-think the past over and over again, or wish for a better life in the future. That caused a lot of pain and kept me from enjoying the present. I'm not completely free of problems or anxiety, but now I am able more often to stay focused on the present and be in a state of peace with it. I'm thankful for my family and the people in my life. I'm thankful for all the things that have happened that have led me to where I am now, even the losses, failures, and pain and suffering. I'm even thankful for the people who I've felt hurt or used by in the past. I've learned great lessons through all of the pain and suffering I've endured. The people I've felt hurt or victimized by in some way in the past have probably had more to do with my being where I am today than anyone else. It was because of that pain that I've learned what I needed to and begun transforming my life. I will be forever grateful to those people for that, even though I no longer choose to associate with people who incessantly try to hurt others in some way. I'm not completely free of anxiety or negativity, but I have made a dramatic change from the way I used to be. I'm living peacefully more often in the present than I ever had before.
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Reading - psychology, self help, John Steinbeck, Kurt Vonegut, John Grisham, walking or hiking especially in scenic areas, exercise, getting together with family, movies, music, animals, travel, amusement parks, sudoku, playing cards, games.
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I thank you dearly and kindly for your prayers, the court house was destroyed in a historical flood. Cedar Rapids Iowa,a town built for historical floods has been virtually washed off of the map. I am going to go for a change of venue because Cedar Rapids is a co-defedant inthe case. The jury pool is from Cedar Rapids, these are tough resilent people, use to hard work and brutal weather, and my paultry 30 million will be thrown out, when they themselves have been victimized by mother nature, so harshly. I think my case needs to go 200 miles to the west, away from the victims, that is my thinking. but I am not in charge, I hired an attorney who has a world famous name, and is in charge. My case is a landmark case envolving a state senator, the state, the secret service, the county, the city, the state, the state park service, and the media, CNN, MSNBC, Fox news, it is the biggest case in the history of Iowa, the media was already set up to air the event on the news, hehe, forget them now with a change of venue, they will not know where it goes, because we will ask for a gag order again, which was reluctantly denied because the lawyer for the media screamed their bloody heads off. Freedom of the press, and all that crap, now with the ultra religious beliefs in Iowa, we can claim that the media is to blame for the flood, and the judge will actually buy it, no kidding, he will. If he doesn't fall on the floor talking in tongues. hugs Jim
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Thank you Ann, Albuq, NM is where I am located, and the weather is very mild, both the winters and summers, no humidity, and no real cold. We are high up in elevation, 6500 ft, so the temp stays in the 80's most of the summer, if it gets to a 100, it is very rare. The weather here will spoil you when you have to go other parts of the country. We have no bugs, no trees and no grass, hehe, its kind of blank, so to speak. Pennsylvania is a beautiful state full of history, some of our nations most significant history, like the erie canal, and the network of train tracks that cross the state. Family is a blessing and I am glad for you in that respect, not all of us are blessed with one. There are people who are lonely, then there are people who are alone, I am the later. I understand loneliness is very painful but I have never felt it, I don't know why, maybe something is wrong with me. I married once and had a child, and they were killed by a drunk driver, I never remarried. That was over 30 years ago, and I have not gotten over it yet. But hey, not everyone has that story book life do they? Have a nice week Ann, talk to you again, hugs Jim
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I am changing my name to Shining Star!! No, I sell all my real art on another website with an embedded trademark, and I make a small amount each month on each print that is sold, the prices have risen each month but then I had to the collection each month by two or three hand-drawn pictures. Its nice hearing from you again, may I ask what part of the world are you in? I assume you are in the states, I post things in my pics about the SW for people in other parts of the world, indian ruins, etc. I am part Hopi, and a member of the Zuni Tribal Council, the Zuni Clan is a seperatist movement of the Hopi Indians, for they refused to go along with the peace treaty with america, so legally we are still at war with America, hehe. We do have the only virgin forest of Walnut trees in America on our small reservation, some 45 ft in circumfrince, and over 200 ft tall. They are estimated at over 1400 years old, but since no trees have ever been cut down, it is hard to tell. The furniture industry has offered a lot of money for single trees, but the council has voted their offers down. Anyway, home work calls, have a nice day. Jim
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You never said you were right I did and that was my opinion>
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I feel the same it was just I came across it several times fro people on my friends list and I had no option but to try and help. There is no better way than them getting professional help. I would hate to be responsible for anything that went wrong you are right again.
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I was raised in a dysfunctional family & I've had issues with anxiety & depression most of my life. I've been doing very well lately. I've tried medication, therapy, exercise, and read many self help books & books on spirituality. They were all useful in their own way. What's helped most was counselling with a good therapist, and the knowledge I gained from a few great writers. I still have some issues but I can cope better with them today than in the past.
Treatments
- Breathing Exercises Working / Worked
- These do help me when I'm feeling very anxious.
- Klonopin Working / Worked
- Helped anxiety, it caused fatigue though and eventually I wanted to be taken off it and my doctor agreed.
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- I can't say enough about how much positive thinking helps.
- Zoloft Working / Worked
- Helped depression, but caused other side effects and eventually I wanted to be taken off it and my doctor agreed.
- Physical Exercise Working / Worked
- Definitely helped my anxiety.
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