is feeling Good
You could probably spend 5 minutes with me and write a better description of me than I could! My head is not with me most of the time.
My main interests are found in nature, can't dig city life. It's just confusion and pollution everywhere! Give me mountains, rivers and the sea! I am dedicated to spiritual growth and creating betterment within a world where suffering is too abundant. There is something better than this rat race of an existence and I'm gonna find it! Finding this happiness I hear about would be nice... I do remember it. I enjoy music of almost any kind, as long as it is has a good vibe. I am very partial to Bob Marley, though. I like hanging' with good company and enjoying the simple things.
hiimblake wrote a journal entry updating 2 goals 3:23pm
Well, I haven't written because everything has slowly but steadily improved and I have found it a…
hiimblake replied to TaliK’s discussion post Is honey vegan in the Vegetarians & Vegans support group 1:54pm
Well, it's a moral question 4 sure... it does not hurt or kill the bees to take their honey, but it does…
hiimblake turned 22 12:00am
October 9, 2008 3:23pm
Well, I haven't written because everything has slowly but steadily improved and I have found it a better use of time to be away from the computer …
July 7, 2008 7:30pm
In general everything has been improving steadily. I have been able to drive some again and bike or walk everyday. It seems this small lonely world …
June 28, 2008 2:12am
Song by Mr. Music himself - BM
Chances are we're gonna leave now Sorry for the victim now Though my days are filled with sorrow I see years …
June 11, 2008 5:46pm
Yes, me friend, We deh pon street again. Yes, me friend, me good friend, Dem say we free again. …
I did.. but I came back. lol!! I missed yall' 2 much lol!!!
I MISS YOU HOSS!!!
Glad to see you're steadily -if slowly- improving. I walked about a quarter of a mile down to a local school and shot hoops today... I'm working on the light exercise thing, building very slowly and with lots of stretching. I hope to be on a bike soon! How has your last month been?
Eh man glad to hear you r well. I am still all messed and the last doc visit did nothing but the one I am seeing in September is the one I think I need to see. Later bro
hi
The short of it is that I've been sick since 09/07 with acute onset CFS and what I now recognize as PTSD. I was bit by a spider while jogging up a mountain and was left immobilized for over an hour before someone found me. I tried to go on with life as usual but found I could not because of overwhelming physical symptoms that only worsened with each day. I became bed bound for nearly 2 months and lost 40 unnecessary pounds before beginning my slow steady climb back to health, which I'm still on.
After being immobilized by a spider bite while hiking, and developing CFIDS and all the ramifications of that condition, I have developed MANY fears and general anxiety, even panic at times. I also came to realize that even before getting hit with CFIDS I avoided certain aspects of life due to deep hurt from childhood crap. Anyway, it is time, and a must if I am going to recover 100% from CFS to deal with these fears.
I always had a some anxiety, mostly in social situations but it was never enough to keep me from anything. Then I became very ill following a spider bite. I developed severe CFS and was too ill to leave the house or even my bed for months. I lost contact with almost everyone. I'm getting better physically, but now that I've been mostly housebound for almost a year everything causes severe anxiety. I have trouble being out of the house and have trouble breathing sometimes from constant anxiety!
