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September 30, 2008 6:39pm
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ToniCB’s Profile
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ToniCB
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Looking for love in all with wrong places, need lots of support and advice.
Recently: 6 journal comments more …
About Me
I am 59 years old. I had been married for 38 years, and woke up one morning and realized my children were grown and settled and it was now time for me! So, I have filed for divorce and want to start a whole new life. My husband was very controling and to some extent is still trying to control all the decisions I have been making. We are tryng to part as friends. I am pretty worried I may be to old to finally live my life the way I want to, so wichme luck, for all I know I just makde the biggest mistake of my life. I have two wonderful daughters and three beautiful grandchildren. My youngest daughter is mentally impaired and has just recently moved in a AFC Home, which was one of the hardest things I have ever done. She seems to be doing well there and comes home every other week-end. I was a workaholio and everything had to be done and on time and correct, so it was nothing for me to bring my work home with me or go in at 4:00 or 5:00 in the morning to get a head start. I did this for 15 years. Needless to say I burned out and had a break down. I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. I also have rheumatoid arthritis since I was in my 20's along with Ulcerative Colities. I think I am now old and a mess.
Interests
Since my body has pretty much given out on me, my favorite thing to do is read and play with my cat. She is my new baby. She is a Siamese and very spoiled. I love to listen and offer advise whenever asked. I love to help people, but I am also very shy and try not to push myself on anyone. I don't make friends easy.
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Recent Activity
Wednesday
Tuesday
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ToniCB gave ohxemxgee a Hug 9:45pm
Do I look older than sixty? Here I thought I was aging well. Anyway hon, your advice really has helped…
Sunday
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ToniCB gave hugsneeded a Well Done 11:19pm
If anyone can do it you can, you have helped me so much, I have every confidence in you.…
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ToniCB asked for advice: I need help in trying to stop being so needy in the Healthy Relationships support group 9:34pm
I get a man interested, then I immediately want a committed relationship and if that is not enough, I…
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ToniCB gave barlochan a Gold Star 8:17pm
Congrats. knew you could do it!!!!! Way to go friend!!!!!!…
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Journal
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Feeling so Alone
September 22, 2008 3:11pm
I could use all the friends can get today. Don't know what happen, just found myself broken down in tears and feeling so very alone. …
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I'm Baaaack!!!!!
September 9, 2008 5:01pm
Ok, I know it has been a while, but I have made my move and have completeled settled into my new home, and I love it. My divorce will be …
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Feeling a little lost
August 17, 2008 1:02am
I'm not sure what me problem has been lately. I am still very happy about my divorce, still feel like I have made the right deciision, but …
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Update
July 13, 2008 11:29am
Think it is about time I got off my butt and started renewing my life. Actually I am in a great place right now. I am moving to my …
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Hugbook
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Hug
Yesterday brought the beginning, tomorrow brings the end, and somewhere in the middle we became good friends. Have a great weekend! Hugs Nancy
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Hug
A good friend is a connection to life - a tie to the past, a road to the future, the road to sanity in a totally insane world. Happy Thursday, Hugs Nancy
Good Luck
I read ur abt me & ur not to old to start over, ah heck u don't even look 59. If ur hubby is controlling then maybe it is time to get out, I don't know tht is ur decision, but there is love out there for u & u will find it when u least expect it, I wish u luck in all u do take care & have a good day, ))))))HUGS)))))))
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A friend like you are special hugs from God. Of all the friends I've ever met. You're the one I won't forget. Have a hugging good day. Hugs Nancy
Flower
Hey there! I just wanted you to know that I think you are one of the kindest people I've met on DS and I don't tell you enough how appreciated you are! You have always sent me hugs and given great advice and I really appreciate it. And you ARE very pretty! Don't be so self-conscious! :o)
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Support Groups
Close Anxiety
I can be a very jealous prson, but I try to hide it, even though it may be hurting so much insidd, I find it just turns the other person away from you.
Treatments
- Lexapro Somewhat Helpful
- Positive Thinking Too Soon to Tell
- It is hard to think positive thoughts when you are feeling abandoned ad alone.
Close Crohn's Disease & Ulcerative Colitis
I see quite a few people suffer from Chron's, but not as many from Ulcerative Colitiies, which is what I have had since I was 22 years oldand I am now 58. I have learned a lot of things since I first came down with this and had to have surgery and how to live with it. If I can offer any advise ir just want to talk about this terrible disease, I would be more than hapy to help you.
Treatments
- Azulfidine Working / Worked
- Lomotil Working / Worked
- Prednisone Somewhat Helpful
- the prednisone made me bloat up and the Dr. called it a moon face. I was on it to long and therefore I started having arthrities in my joints. As soon as I was taken of it, the Colities would becoe active again.
- Surgery Working / Worked
- Had complete large intestine and partial small intestine removed.
Open Arthritis
Hi, my name is Toni. I have had RA for about 30 years now. I have had some joint replacements done recently because I could no longer move, my joints were so deformed. I have good days and bad days, but I am always tired and never have any engery. I had to go on disbility three years ago from a job I loved because I could no longer do it, I think that added to the depression I also suffer from. Most people get tired of hearing about how you really feel.
Treatments
- Ibuprofen Not Working
- Naproxen Not Working
- did not touch me
- Surgery, Knee Replacement Working / Worked
- so far have had good results. No side effects.
- Tylenol Not Working
- did not work at all
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI think I was depressed as a child but did not know what it was then, I just know I was never really happy. As I got older thing started making more sense to me and I am now working hard and have been to come out of it. I was so close, I was actually feeling real joy, I don't what to lose that now.
Treatments
- Cymbalta Working / Worked
- Seems to help alot
- Lexapro Working / Worked
- works very well with my down feelings
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- Can't seem to find to much positive things in my life.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Someone to talk to and help me with my low self-esteem
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- They really don't understand
Open Healthy Relationships
just waiting for my divorce to become final and had my first official date.
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