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I'm a 41 year old happily remarried for almost four years with three children, 19, 17, and 14. I have given up working in medical billing-I did this for ten years to become a cashier (once again). I was told by my doctor that I needed stress relief and my previous career was not going to do it for me. Due to stress and anxiety I was admitted to the hospital for throwing up a bathroom trashcan full of blood out of nowhere. I was put on two IV's and given two blood transfusions. My blood pressure dropped to 65/45. My psychiatrist told me I was lucky to be alive. I feel very lucky. Anybody else out there like me? Do you cry for no reason? Have a great life but still feel like a failure? There really is nobody I know to talk to besides my husband, and if you haven't lived this I think it is really hard to try to understand. As my ex-husband used to tell me, "It's all in your mind." I would tell him I knew it was all in my mind, but when you can't control what is going on in your mind, life is terrifying. Any body else feel like me? If so, how do you cope? Thanks.