slade87's Journal

         I stated new diet today  Im only 15- 20 over weight but I used to be so athletic. I was IN basket ball and I had a bad knee dislocation. it paralized my quad muscle for 2 months but I had learned how to walk again with physical theropy. Im really good at it but it scares me I never want to go through that again. The town I live in dosnt have a ambulance but it has a hospital, so it took a hour and a half to finnally get there. that was a long time to have your knee out of place it tore my acl and messed up my hip. Im fine now but my hip hurts but I need to be more active. I got a call from my dad yesterday hes not doin so well. all the males in my family have been like 6'6 and 400 pounds, and all have diabettes and heart problems.  my dad was really skinny at my age but then just got bigger, same with my grandpa( who died of heart falure).MY grrandpa died at 50 my dad is 43 and has kydny falure, diabettes,and sleep apnia. I dont want to be like that. my biggest prob is motivationand im on celexa so its hard to feel motivated.                                                                  Its so funny Im such a morron, my goal is to deal with lifes problems. isnt that what life is? im 21 and ive seen so much. and if things go right i have a long ways to go, I tell u what if I die and there is nothing after life Im goin to be really pissed off