sabbdan's Journal

i am writing this because i need some support from other people who care for someone with bipolar.my fiance suffers from this ,i have been with her for over a year and have lived with her for 7 months.i knew she had problems from the start,like self harming years ago,violent marriages,having her kids took off her but i never new she had this illness,until about a month ago.now i no a few things about it but need some guidience.i at the moment over the past months i have fell into the trap of arguing with her over very petty things.which have led to her getting me arrested,and being kicked out of the last place we stayed.but she always comes back to me she has said some hurtful things and done some silly things like throwing paint all over my clothes,smashing up my computer,and having me arrested.but now i realise that these things are part of bipolar and not aimed at me.today started great and then she went on one and now has gone out to town,which is not good for her as she is an alchoholic,but if i said no dont go out it just makes her worse.i have started to get depressed myself i used to work in a bar which did not help her so i left and now i resent her for that,all my friends from the past 22years i have now lost,and i am now barred from the pub.