Since cutting yesturday for the …
Since cutting yesturday for the first time in a while, I'm reminded how much i miss it. I have a hard time …

1:44am
im not sure if im still hear because i dont want to die or because i just dont want my bf to come home and find me. i told myself yesturday that i either #1 want to love myself to the point where food and obsessive food thoughts dont control me or #2 to kill myself so the pain goes away. and i know for a fact #1 is not an option i will never love myself enough to not hate myself...
i dont know what to do...
i have to much inside that needs to be written but im to exhuasted to do that right now...
Since cutting yesturday for the first time in a while, I'm reminded how much i miss it. I have a hard time …
My "eating disorder voice" as they would say at the hospital is very loud today. It seems like all of …
I have commitment issues. Not just with girlfriends, but friends too. I'm not sure why. I don 't let anyone get too …