rgtrundle's Journal

Today has been a pretty tough day. I am at work and had to go to a meeting in which there were 2 other pregnant people. It's just very discouraging to be around people that can conceive so easily. I am jealous. I know it is natural but it is still very hard to deal with. I am also very frustrated with Craig's wife Ashley. She shouldn't be having a baby. She doesn't want to be pregnant. How does she deserve this more than me? I just have a hard time understanding and dealing with this. I think it is even harder because I was going to be the first grandchild to have a baby. It was me first and now it is her and I can never be the first again.