kellirthrasher's Journal

     I'm not sure what to do.  I have two children, ages 4 and 2, and they need me so much.  I can't drive anymore, b/c 2 months ago, I was driving home, (100 miles away) and I kept feeling dizzy and getting panic attacks.  The doctors tried to push me off as an anxiety case, and I knew that wasn't it, so I googled as much as I could about my symptoms and found out I had TMJ, and the doctors agreed.  They told me to go to the dentist, and then get a referral to an oral surgeon. 

     How can I get to the dentist, that can accept my medical card, that is 45 miles away if I can't even drive 5 miles away, to get to the grocery store?  I live in a town, that is 100 miles away from my family, with my kids' father.  I don't want to leave him, but I don't know what to do.  He works all the time and can't get me back and forth to the doctor.

       What will they do with me at the dentist?  Will they cure it all?  My equilibrium is all messed up.  I feel like I'm going to die most days, or pass out and not be there for my son when he gets off the bus, or pass out, and my 2 year old will be left unattended.  I'm so scared.  I don't want to live the rest of my life like this.  

     Can this go away on its own?  What can I do to solve this?  I can't work.  I don't think this is something that you can get disability for....WHat will I do for money?  The world is crashing down on me.