durbs13's Journal

I HAVE GONE 35 DAYS WITHOUT CUTTING!!! AND 3 WEEKS WITHOUT PURGING!!!!!!!!

im trying really hard to stop. 

i really want to. i might even sign up for S.A.F.E. idk. sometimes it kills me how much i want to. i imagine it and i need to feel it....but i have to stop. i have to. 

well....i'm trying really hard. 

my record is 68 days without cutting.

i feel pretty good...considering....nothing has really happened that bad that it tested me a lot tho. which i'm glad. but idk how long i will be able to last. at around 40 days i just feel the need to because its like withdrawel. 

i feel good that im moving forward to making a difference in my life. although its way easier in the summer then in the school year, because there isn't stress about school and sports. 

but for now, i'm just taking it one day at a time. 

any feedback is very welcome....i dont have anyone to talk to at home.