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I am a 39 year old single mother of a 15 and 17 year old. I have been seperated/divorced going on 2 1/2 years. For the most part I am happyily divorced. My divorce from a 17 year marriage has taught me alot about myself. I am alot strong than I ever thought I was. I did not realize how unhappy I truely was and how much of myself I had hidden. However, it has left me very lonely and at times wondering why I can't seem to find/keep a good loving man and why I define myself by being in a relationship and why I feel that I need a man. Most days I do real good but, for some reason I keep rehashing the past and wondering why my cheating ex (who could not be faithful or never wanted to be married or live with a women) is now living with his last affair...I am the one who always wanted a marriage, why does he walk away and end up with what I always wanted and can't find?
I am spending less time depressed as time goes on. I have days where I am down and can't pick myself up.
I was married for 17 years to a man who thought the grass was greener on the other side. He lied and cheated most of our marriage. I always forgave him, well really I just put up with it. I stuffed my unhappiness. For 15th anver. we decided to get married by the church, the night before he had his last affair. I found out a week later. "The usual he said he would stop seeing her, he didn't. I kicked him out and filled for divorce. For the most part I am happier.