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Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
need to reconnect...old eating habits back...gained weight and can't fit into post gbs clothes...look fat and miss feeling gorgeous...sickening....turned to Jenny Craig for food portion support....need to exercise.....start small ?
3/20/08 New: Bought a bicycle and rode around the block once....determined to use it as my upcoming exercise which has the dual purpose of my getting out into the fresh air.....very happy with that.....otherwise, moods have been very up and down.....seeing the psychiatrist for a "session"...want to review my moods and medications and make some adjustments.....friends around me are going through serious changes....one has kidney cancer, another just buried a sick brother, my daughter was rejected from her 1st choice for grad school....in a good way, it is a chance for her to change direction and re-evaluate....that's a good thing.....
Tired of MEASURING MYSELF.....money, food, weight, work
Trying to stay focused on life feeling nice and everything else coming second.....
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tomorrow is my son's 17th birthday.....I have no card, nothing planned, no gift....and work 2 to 10PM....So upset to add this to my list of things that I have NOT done right......getting my own approval is monumental to me...and I hate everything in my path when I don't have it.......Self-examination, prayer and meditation are the keys.....will I move toward them? I hate myself for answering NO, why? because I have all kinds of obligations-quite a price to pay.....it is hard to be me when I am like this!! which is alot of the time!!
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Smooch, there is so much stress these days, I know your doing the best you can. Don't feel guilty! It just will set you back. God knows your doing the best you can. We just can't do more than that. I can relate to hating everything in the way, so unfair. But we know, life isn't fair.
Prayer and medition are a big help. You are in my thoughts and prayers, my friend. Never give up! xxxooo
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Hey, good for you, I love riding bikes. It's a little dangerous around here though with all the traffic. Everyone seems to be going through major changes. I guess all we can do is try and stay focused!!!
love ya, xxxooo
dkay
That's great I have a bicycle that I bought at the end of summer. I rode it only a few times but it is great therapy plus exercise. I go and ride feel the breeze against my face and where I live I am out in the country so its quite except for the birds chirping. I can't wait to start riding again. I have to wait til my dr releases me after gall bladder surgery but it will be great and it will be great for you to it will give you some alone time to rejuvenate. Also get some lotion that is great smelling and nail colors paint your nails and just pamper yourself one day open the windows for a little while and let the breeze blow in of fresh air. It will cheer anyone up and here is a great big hug.
robinsg