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heidi6
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About Me
I'm 24 years old. I have a beautiful 3 year old son (autistic)and the world's best husband. It sounds perfect but in that home there lives a mother/wife who has depression. I don't remember what it feels like to be normal. I in a way have amnesia when it comes to my feelings I don't remember who I was. I want to feel happy. I want to go into public and not feel everyone watching me with discust.I want to better help my son. I want to want to clean my house. I want to not worry everytime my husband leaves the house that he is going to die. Same with my some. Most of all I want to be able to look in the mirror and not want to kill myself.
Interests
I love to do bead work but I have carpel tunnel in both hands.Photography. The other interests that I use to like and want to again are books, writng poetry, painting. I don't remember the other interests.
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I got your email for friend request but couldn't get the accept/deny cue. So hoping doing it this way works.
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From ThePepperMan
May 14
Sorry things are not going well for you. DS is a great place to make friends and work things out. we are all going through stuff, and at least we "get it"! Welcome
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Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionThree years ago I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy. That's when it all started. I had post partum depression, I can't even remember how it feels to be happy. I have a husband whose supportive but doesn't understand and a son who is autistic. I have a community doc (nun) and no insurance to get any real help.
Treatments
- Celexa Working / Worked
- I am currently taking this one and it helps a lot. I'm awake for more than 6 hours a day. Still no energy but it's a start.
- Effexor Not Working
- My brain was going mad and my body was on strike (exhausted).
- Lexapro Not Working
- I took 14 pills one night before I stopped myself and got help.
- Prozac Not Working
- I don't remember how I felt but it didn't help.
- Psychotherapy Considering
- I think therapy is good, but the one I had said I was contradicting myself and not making sense so I stopped. I have no insurance to find a new one.
- Trazodone Working / Worked
- I am currently taking this and another one that help a little. It helps with extreme paranoia.
- Writing Not Working
- I currently can't remember things, so I forgot to write. When I did write it didn't help because it was just like saying it in my head. I never feel better because nothing happens.
- Zoloft Not Working
- I was always tired and couldn't get out of bed unless forced.
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