jobo8080's Journal

Well, I tried the non-beer again last night and  got the same result as yesterday.  My ringing stayed at a lower tolerable ring.  I certainly hope this is not a fluke.  I don't feel it is a placebo either b/c the first time it didn't work.  It seems that salt is effecting my ringing whereas earlier with my T it didn't bother me.  I am starting to get a bit paranoid of doing things now.  I am afraid that if I do something wrong it will dramatically increase my T.  I am trying a masking therapy now from a man in Canada.  First try so far and it increased my T.  So now I am waiting for another suggestion from him today.  I don't feel like doing anything and I don't know why b/c i have had worse days with this thing.  I think it might be these stupid anti-depressants.  I wonder if I could handle it without them again.  I posted photos today and it makes me sad to know that I may never get to go to a  Nascar race ever again.  That was my first and last.  I reminds me of a time without pain.

Today is Monday May 19,2008.  I woke up today with a lower ringing tone.  I drank almost 1 bottle of the non-alcoholic beer last nite.  I took my anti-depressant around 11:00pm and almost an hour later I still wasn't tired.  It usually makes me sleepy but I think my body might be getting used to it.  So I resorted to taking two .25mg xanax.  Well, I slept thru the whole nite just fine.  I had my regular coffee this morning too.  I tried one time in the morning to drink only decaf. and I swear it made my ringing increase.  Who knows?  I guess what works for one doesn't work for all.  Trial and error. My ringing was the same all day until I ate supper.  I make a sauce that has a lot of sodium in it.  I debated whether or not I should eat it but it is one of my favorite meals.  Well, wrong choice cause now my ringing is higher.  Still not as bad as yesterday but still bothersome.  Oh well, I'll try another virgin beer and pop a couple xanax tonite.  How long will I have to take these stupid drugs?  I have piles of laundry whereas before my T my OCD would have set in.  Now being on an anti-depressant I could care less.  Hopefully I will have my life back soon!!!!!!!!

Today is Sunday May 18, 2008.  Well woke up this morning with the T louder today than yesterday.  Not quite sure why.  Last nite we ate dinner late at Chilie's.  I had a chicken fajita and some chips and a glass of red wine.  I stopped at the store and bought some non-alcoholic beer (yuck!) to try.  I read a few places that one bottle b4 bedtime could help with the ringing.  So, did that make my ringing go up or did the wine.  The nite b4 last I had a glass of wine and the next morning was fine better than today.  I have only taken tylenol today and no xanax yet.  I didn't take any yesterday, so I guess that's good.  I might have to take one soon.  It's starting to get to me a bit.  Trying to occupy my mind by watching the Pens game.  They're winning so far 2 to 0.  Enough for today let's pray tomorrow is better!