normaa's Journal

Hi, it's me here.  This week has been over whelming but you already know that.  i get so involved in my work that I let it get to me.  But the long weekend is here.  I hate that you are not here.  because tomorrow is the 4th.  But instead of staying at home and feel really sad I am going to go out of town.  I am going with Erica and the boys down to south Texas David is going also.  Mom and grandma and Janie left this morning.  i think it will be good, it is sad because I wish you were still here.  I hate all this holidays coming up because we get all this days off and it just sucks.  I miss all the good times we had and all the things we did.  Everytime I try to move forward something pulls me back.  I miss you more and more everday.  Julie said she crys everday and I do the same.  Every little thing sets it off.  I think of things and remember of you.  I know you would want me to move forward and start enjoying life but how can I when you are gone.  You were a big part of my life and there is a void know.  I know I am not making any since right know.  But I am the one left here in this life and I just hate it.  i just want to be with you, it will never be the same.  I can't wait till I get to be with you again.  Well I better go for know,  I love you and miss you very much.