kokomokers's Journal

Well my 4th of July weekend is pretty much shot. I worked ALL day on Thursday (8-9) and Friday (8-10), I'm off today thank God but I have to work again all day tomorrow. We're supposed to work 8-8, but when it's busy we have to stay so the last 48 hours I've worked 27 of them. I do love my job, but the hours there are killing me!! It's nice to work 4 days a week instead of 5 but the "12 hour" days are turning into 13/14 ever since we started doing emergencies again. I hate it....I only went to my hospital because they didn't do emergencies. Well a year and a half later, now we're doing them. I've never done EM in my life, and we were all just thrown into it with no training or experience in this sort of thing; AND they expect us to know all the computer work that the receptionists do, again with no training. We were trained on labwork (which was basically a refresher course for me since I learned it 3 years ago in school) but that's the easy part....it's the other stuff that we have no idea how to do. They wanted this EM shit SO badly, but they didn't think of training the staff for it! So my only options at this point are to either A) just deal with it, it's semi-good pay and the benefits are unbelievable, or B) quit and lose my benefits (which by the way covered 100% of my entire pregnancy....including u/s, surgeries & ER visit). So the answer is pretty clear...I can't quit now. I guess I'll just grin & bear it until I finally have my baby, and then we can think about moving back home...that was our original plan when we were pregnant before.

Speaking of pregnancy....I'm on CD 26, and I think this long work schedule this weekend is probably better for my mental status lol. It certainly does keep my mind off being pregnant so that's a good thing :) AF is due around Tuesday/Wednesday so I'm just gonna see what happens. I'm avoiding testing early b/c even if I am pregnant now, I don't trust that it'll show up. I was 4 days late before, and I got a very faint positive. I know every pregnancy is different, but I don't think I could handle a bfn right now. I'll just wait it out....it's only a few more days anyway. I've gone this far in my 2ww, so what's a couple more days!! For now, I need all the prayers and baby dust I can get!!!