kokomokers's Journal

Yesterday I had my follow-up ultrasound to check for anything left over from my last D&C, since I had an infection starting to develop.  Well, there was still something left over so the doctor told me I'd need another D&C to get the rest. I wanted to see if I could pass it on my own this time (I didn't exactly like the thought of having another IV catheter...yikes), but she felt that the amount left was too significant to let it go without surgery. When I got home lastnight, I was pretty crampy from the ultrasound...my cervix was still pretty sore from the infection and the last surgery, and that u/s probe didn't help matters very much. The cramps started getting much worse, and by 10-ish in the evening, I was almost crying I was in so much pain. I went to the bathroom....lo and behold!! I passed 2-3 medium sized clots. Yay!! I was pretty happy, despite the fact that I was still miserable from the pain. Nick called the emergency number since the cramps weren't going away, and the nurse midwife wanted to get the doctor on the phone with us, but she was pretty sure they'd want me in for an emergency D&C. The doctor called us back, and thank God by then the cramps were lessening slowly but surely. She had me take some advil, and stay in bed the rest of the night, and hopefully I'd make it until the next day for the surgery.

So today I went to the hospital for my second D&C. I told the doctor about passing the clots lastnight, and she thought that I had most likely passed the majority of what was left, but she wanted to do the surgery anyway....I was already there, IV catheter in place (the first nurse didn't get it and had to dig around for my vein....uuugghhh I thought I was gonna pass out!) and she wanted to make sure it was all gone for sure.  She did a pre- and post-op u/s and finally it's all gone....she said my uterus couldn't be any cleaner, hahaha. She put me on Methergine to slow the bleeding down and prevent any clots....apparantly that's what had happened before - while I was bleeding like I should've been, the blood clotted and I wasn't able to pass it until lastnight.

So now, I'm hoping that this ordeal is *finally* over, and I can get myself healed!! I think even after all of the trouble that my pregnancy had given me, I still want to try again. I'm still afraid of the same thing happening, but I've decided to leave it up to God and go from there. Even though my miscarriage really tested my faith in God, I think in the end it only strengthened my faith :)