I said I wouldn't, but I did...
July 5, 2008 2:04pm
Maybe I'm a glutton for punishment. Maybe I get my kicks out of torturing myself. Maybe I'm just a neurotic freak who dwells constantly on …
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kokomokers
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I need a vacation!!
About Me
I'm a veterinary technician, and I just got married in December to my wonderful husband and best friend, Nick. For right now, our kids consist of 3 fat & lazy cats, who by the way are completely wonderful and we love them to pieces :) We were recently expecting our first child in November, but unfortunately God had another plan our little Sophie is now back in Heaven. Actually we never knew it was a girl, but that's what I always felt in my heart from the moment I knew I was pregnant. We're very hopeful to try again this fall though. She'll never be forgotten, but we still want children so we're not giving up hope for another baby :)
Interests
I love animals, I believe my cats understand more about me than I even realize. I'm a huge hockey fan, my husband and I love the Pittsburgh Penguins! I try to see my friends and family as much as possible, I don't know what I'd do without them :) I love to crochet and cross stitch, but I rarely find the time or patience for it anymore. I live in the city, but I desperately want to move back to the country to be closer to my mom and Nick's parents.
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kokomokers gave sam23 Flowers 2:17pm
Thank you so much :) I really hope so...maybe my husband was right. I'll find out soon enough though.…
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kokomokers replied to lnwilliams78’s discussion post Pregnant Bellies in the Miscarriage support group 2:15pm
I know exactly how you feel. Me and a girl at work were 3 weeks apart (she was ahead of me). I should…
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kokomokers wrote a journal entry updating their Be more positive!!! goal 2:04pm
Maybe I'm a glutton for punishment. Maybe I get my kicks out of torturing myself. Maybe I'm just…
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kokomokers changed their mood to Bad 2:03pm
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kokomokers gave lvnikita a Hug 1:53pm
Me too, even though I said I wouldn't. I wasn't prepared for my reaction, I thought I'd be okay but I…
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kokomokers commented on lvnikita’s journal entry Here's the frustration.... 1:51pm
Well, you know that each test, even if the same brand, can have different levels of sensitivity. I'd…
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kokomokers gave lvnikita a Good Luck wish 9:14am
Just wanted to send some luck your way for whenever you do your test this weekend!! I'll be praying for…
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kokomokers wrote a journal entry: Just your basic venting session :) 9:07am
Well my 4th of July weekend is pretty much shot. I worked ALL day on Thursday (8-9) and Friday (8-10),…
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kokomokers gave 4EVERinLOVE Flowers 8:43am
Have a good 4th of July weekend!! I hope things start looking up for you!! I'll be praying for you to…
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kokomokers replied to rmae990’s request for advice about Blood incompatibility cause of m/c? in the Miscarriage support group 8:30am
It wouldn't hurt to ask your doctor about it. My mom is O+, my dad is A+, and I was born jaundiced, but…
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Just your basic venting session :)
July 5, 2008 9:07am
Well my 4th of July weekend is pretty much shot. I worked ALL day on Thursday (8-9) and Friday (8-10), I'm off today thank God but I have to work …
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(Im)patiently waiting...
July 2, 2008 12:53pm
CD 23...nothing new to report. Still cramping, it feels like a mild stabbing pain on and off throughout the day, feels like it's coming from my …
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Feeling a bit mental lately...
June 30, 2008 6:20pm
Well, here I am on CD 21 and I think I'm going insane!! I've been trying not to think about being pregnant, but I can't help but think …
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I am sorry about your BFN! They suck. The whole situation sucks. Im tired.
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Thinking of you!!
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tomboy or girlie girl witch 1 are you? thanx witchiepo xxxx
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Just starting the 2ww, I know what you mean about fooling yourself into prego symptoms, I did that last month. I WILL NOT let this month make me crazy (at least not too crazy), I just don't know anymore, I really don't know what I'll do if it's another BFN. Hoping this is your month.
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Close Miscarriage
On 5/8/08, at 11w4d, I had an ultrasound because of very slight bleeding and cramping. I discovered I had a missed miscarriage. The baby had stopped growing and died at close to 9 weeks. I never miscarried naturally so I was given the option of a D&C or trying to miscarry naturally. I chose the D&C. One week later, I formed clots in my uterus that were big enough for another D&C to be done.
Treatments
- D&C Working / Worked
- After 2 D&C's, I'm finally on the road to recovery. The first did actually remove everything, but I developed clots that had to be removed with a 2nd one. It seems like it worked, and hopefully af will come soon and I'll be ttc again!
- Grief Counseling Working / Worked
Close Hypoglycemia (low blood sugar)
I have always had symptoms of hypoglycemia but I never recognized it. At a check up about 6 years ago, I told the doctor and I was sent for a glucose tolerance test. I was diagnosed with mild hypoglycemia. Since then, it's all made sense to me. Looking back, I realized why I was always sick in high school (I always tried to lose weight by starvation and strenuous exercise, which never worked!) and it wasn't in my head at all.
Treatments
- Dietitian Consult Working / Worked
- If I follow a diet low in refined sugars and white carbs and high in proteins and whole grains I feel fantastic. Sometimes I get lazy and I eat the wrong things though and I really suffer. My hypoglycemia is fairly mild though so as long as I follow my diet plan it works for me.
Open Endometriosis
I was told by my doctor 10 years ago that I had endometriosis. I switched doctors for my next visit (insurance reasons) and they were insistent I didn't have it. Went to yet another doctor who tried diet changes, different birth control pills, ultrasounds to r/o anything else...nothing changed. Finally had a lap in 2002, and finally got my true diagnosis of having endometriosis.
Treatments
- Ortho Evra Not Working
- Didn't seem to minimize any pain, all it did was leave irritations wherever I placed it.
- Surgery Working / Worked
- Worked well at first, no cramps for about 2 years. Started having horrible cramps again after around the 2 year mark. Have not had another lap for fear of even more scarring and hurting my fertility.
Open Healthy Eating
I would like to reform my eating habits by cutting out fast food and eating foods that are healthier for me. I am currently trying to conceive after a miscarriage and I want my body to be as healthy as possible for if and when I get pregnant again.
Open Diets & Weight Maintenance
I am a victim of fad diets and diet pills. Since graduating high school almost 10 years ago, I've put on about 60 pounds. I've tried so many different ways to lose weight but none have ever stuck. I'm back to the basics of eating right & exercising. I don't have a weight goal, I just want to be healthy and feel good about myself.
Treatments
- Curves Working / Worked
- Worked well, but when I moved I had to change Curves locations as well. I didn't like my new location. It was very inconvenient (I need convenience) and I ended up quitting. I lost 18 lbs, but gained it all back.
- Eating Healthier Foods Working / Worked
- Along with exercise, this worked well for me. I have trouble sticking to a healthy diet, though.
- Eat Less Not Working
- Every time I ate less, I ate the wrong foods and I was hungry an hour later. I ended up eating more often.
- Physical Exercise Working / Worked
- Pilates worked the best for me. I lost weight fast and gained a lot of core strength.
- Slim-Fast Not Working
- Very boring, and the shakes taste awful!!
- South Beach Diet Not Working
- Worked at first, but I'm hypoglycemic and I crashed after 1 week on Phase 1. I hated the recipes anyway!!
- Weight Watchers Somewhat Helpful
- I didn't join the program, I just ate the Smart Ones lunch meals. I did Pilates as well and lost 17 lbs. I quit when I got depressed over a personal issue.
Open Pre-menstrual Syndrome (PMS)
About a week before my period, I suffer from back pain, cramping, bloating, and awful sweating. I'm irritable and horribly exhausted. I feel like the meanest woman in the world the week before AF!!!
Treatments
- Midol Somewhat Helpful
- I took this years ago for PMS & period symptoms, but it really only helped with the pain and did very little for the bad PMS symptoms.
- Naproxen Working / Worked
- Works pretty good for the cramping, but not much else.
- Oral Contraceptives Working / Worked
- I used to take BC pills for my ovarian cysts, and they seem to make my periods a little easier to deal with. I've been off BC for a few years now though.
