Journal Entry for June 16, 2008
June 16, 2008 1:44pm
Today I am venting about my writing. So far I have 55 pages written of my first "dark fantasy". It got hard to write during my anxiety …
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SaraAirey’s Profile
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About Me
I am just starting college. I am going to school to hopefully become a novelist. As far as philosophy, I take bits and pieces from Buddhism, Hinduism, and Quantum Mechanics and believe that the world is our combined perceptions. I am finding it difficult to practice my beliefs, though, with my newly developed anxiety disorder.
Interests
I love videogames, writing, reading, music (mostly classic rock), animals. I am a practicer of Buddhist ideas, but I am not a Buddhist. I'm sure that most people never thought of putting Quantum Physics and Buddhism together, but if you research the subject you will find astonishing similarities. You can ask me more about this if it interests you.
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Journal Entry for June 14, 2008
June 14, 2008 6:10pm
I am alright today. Still progressively conquering my anxiety without meds. I'm fighting depression with happiness (sometimes forced) but soon …
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Journal Entry for June 12, 2008
June 12, 2008 5:22pm
I just want to be free. Right now I feel like a caged bird. I want to up and leave. I need change. I love my boyfriend to death, but I'm such an …
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Journal Entry for June 8, 2008
June 8, 2008 2:36am
Today I am okay. I was out most of the day with my boyfriend. For the most part we were at his brother's and sister's house playing the new …
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Better
June 6, 2008 6:48pm
Okie dokie- today I'm doing better. What was really making my depression worse yesterday was my boyfriend. I know that in the beginning he was …
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Hope you can wirte more paragraphs, that don't need to be reworded. I don't have the talent to write a book, the best I can do is my journals. LOL
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May God bless you and help you through and hardship that you may be going through. May you see his awesome love in your life. Im praying for you!
Prayer
Good evening Sara how is your pain what's new with you I'm doing just find I went for supper on Saturday evening and I went and took a piece of steak well guest what I got sick again all evening I had belly aches.Then the next day I ate 1/2 bowl of rice and again I could not digest it,then the next day I ate pasta could not digest it at all.so I'm not eating that much,But I still my Dietition again and it's going just great I must eat 1/4 cup yogourt of soya and 1/2 fruit and I must eat every 2 hours,wich I dont do often cause I have hard time to digest.GTG now it's getting late I will talk to u tomorrow ok take care.your friend Carmelle
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Aloha friend. It`s been awhile, and im sorry. I hope things are going for you. God bless you. :)
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Good evening SaraAirey how are u doing how is your pain is it in controlnow.I have seen my dietition last Thursday and told me I should eat every 2 hours,small portion like a little mouse,I should measure 2.5 oz of meat 3 times a day,to let my food digest better,I should drink my water after my meal's,then take a walk for 15 min,a regular walk not to fast.Drink 3 litres of water every day.That"s for everyone.If I dont eat any sugar I'm find.I dont get sick I can not eat any green vegetables for now certain fruit I can eat and they dont give any gas are,peaches,watermelon,cantaloupe honeydoo,papaya,banana,kiwi,.I should alway's eat soya and tofu product.gtg now it was nice to have talk to u have yourself a wonderfull week I'm going to see my parent's leaving on Tuesday morning till Thursday evening,ok so I will talk to u tomorrow evening Good night Carmelle
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Close Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS)
I am 19 years old and have had IBS since I was 6. At first they thought it was lactose intolerance but was diagnosed with IBS later in life. I have recently developed an anxiety disorder which is making it worse. It is very difficult to be so young with this disorder and it really effects my ability to live like someone my age should.
Treatments
- Probiotics Too Soon to Tell
- I have only been trying probiotics for only two days now, but I have noticed my tummy has been feeling a bit better.
Close Panic Attacks
I am 19 years old and have recently, within the last two months, developed General Anxiety Disorder. I am struggling to cope with the endless symptoms I have developed since then and trying to return to my normal life. It seems as though low self-esteem is the cause of this breakdown, but I still don't know exactly how combat that.
Treatments
- Meditation Working / Worked
- I practiced meditation before I developed my anxiety disorder. Since then, it has been hard to meditate because it's so hard to focus on anything but the pain and discomfort I feel. Meditation involves clearing your mind of thoughts and association to form, and if you can truly slip into this peaceful state, it will help more than you might think. It takes you beyond your physical self, and can actually help you find your mind-body connection. I highly recommend meditation if can pratice it.
- Patience Working / Worked
- Keeping in mind that this must work itself out helps me avoid desparing over my situation. My symtpoms then become much less intense and they disappear more quickly.
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- Positive thinking combats the catastrophic thoughts, such as "I'm going to die." It has helped keep me from spending $100 bucks on yet another ER visit and helped me see that the symptoms will disappear as soon as I allow them without resistance.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- This is helping in extrordinary ways. Everytime I leave my therapist's office I feel hopeful and optimistic. I am also getting closer to solving the self-esteem issues that may have caused my disorder to begin with. I highly recommend therapy and group therapy. You will learn the entire anatomy of a panic attack and what your body is doing to cause your symptoms. This helps you avoid catastrophic thinking.
- Xanax Not Working
- The ER gave me Xanax to calm me down, but I learned from my phsychatrist that they will only cover your anxiety momentarily. Once they wear off, usually while you are sleeping, your anxiety will skyrocket to worse than it was before you took the medicine. I experienced this several times and have actually been doing better without it.
- Group Therapy Working / Worked
- Group therapy helps you find people ranging in all ages including your own who are experiencing what you are. This is called experiential knowledge and exposes you to peoples real success stories instilling a sense of hope and will.
Open ADHD / ADD
Teachers were telling my mom since I was in first grade that I had ADD. We tried medications but they really didn't help me in the areas I needed them to. I am currently doing nothing to treat my ADD because I have IBS and General Anxiety Disorder to combat. I know, I'm a mess!
Treatments
- Ritalin Not Working
- I did not like what Ritalin did to me. I was a zombie on it and had no feelings of excitement or happiness. I was just a neutral blah and it really didn't even help my ADD. It was apparently addictive as well and my friends wanted to buy it from me. I stopped using Ritalin in 10th or 11th grade, so about three years ago, and have been doing alright.
Open Smoking Addiction & Recovery
I have only been smoking for about three years, I am 19 years old. I wanted to quit smoking less than a year after I had actually become addicted. Since then I have fluctuated in the amount of cigarettes I smoke, but I have had no long-term success with quitting yet.
Treatments
- Cold Turkey Working / Worked
- This is a very hard route to go down, but if you can use it successfully it will be better than any other treatment because you needed no assistance, and therefore have no other dependency.
- Nicotine Patch Somewhat Helpful
- I get really bad nightmares when I use patches and they usually don't help me in the places I need them like social situations. They are somewhat useful for physical withdrawl, but they do nothing for the mental cravings.
- Willpower Working / Worked
- What really helps me is the knowledge that cravings only last up to a minute before they disappear for another hour or even hours. This really helps me put that five minute cigarette into perspective and stick to my real priorities.
Open Depression
I have anxiety and recently this has led to depression. Sometimes I want to hurt myself, but can usually overcome this urge. I want to be alone most of the time and fear I am becoming agoraphobic.
Treatments
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- It's helpful when people talk to you, but sometimes they don't respond and for someone who already feels worthless, it can kind of make it worse.
Open Accidents
My dad was in a bad car accident almost two years ago now. He had massive brain trauma and is still trying to recover.
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