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I know my last entry seemed very angry and I wasat the time. lol. I am feeling much better now, however it is father's day tomorrow and he's coming round to see the kids. I've told him that I can't be here and I think he understands why, he's not stupid. If I spend time with him I'll probably cry and want a big hug but that's not what I need to do, so I plan to simply avoid it lol. I've had my sister, my niece and my two best friends over today and tomorrow I'm going to my sister's for a roast, should be fab. I should really buy a father's day card for Martin but I don't know if he deserves one.
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I've never really done an on line journel but here goes. I'm feeling like shit today, it's 4 days since Martin left, I did ask him to go but that doesn't make you feel better. I just couldn't cope with the shitty sex addiction any more, I'm a young, not unattractive woman with everything going for me and he treats me like this. I am so totally sad about the whole thing, I really didn't want to have to make him leave for him to sort himself out and now I'm just worried that he'll find someone else while he's gone trying to fix himself. I really love him, he is my soul mate and I know he feels the same but I can imagine him getting into a situation where he ends up in bed with someone else, then it would be truely over. I just wanna hit him in the face and make him ugly so other people won't be attracted to him.
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Aww srry your soo down hun
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I am sorry that you are feeling so rotten and mixed up. But maybe this way Martin can figure out what he really wants or maybe I should say concentrate on what he really wants. I don't think they truely don't want us more but that it is just hard for them to not choose what their head is screaming for. I hope it all works out for ya'll but if you find out that he can't choose do the right thing then you can finally move forward and you deserve that-as hard as it may seem you will move on and life will get better. I'm here if you need me.
"Just wanted to check and see how you were doing. I hope better.
hugs"
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