ChrisFair's Journal

I am feeling good today. I made it through the store last week. It took three hours but, I made it out without having a major panic attack. I have also started packing a lady's house for a move that she is making. That is going great. So I am feeling good right now. I am also trying to lose weight. So help me with that if you can.

I hate money. My husband has a good job and we still do not have enough money for the bills. I homeschool all of the kids so I can't work during the day. Well I can't sleep at night so I should just get a job during the night. My daughter is turning 6 on the 17th of April and I do not have enough money to get her gifts. I just get upset that one can work so hard and think that we are doing the right thing and it never works out that way. I am a Christian and I pray everyday. I just do not understand. I am an old fashioned type of person and I think that the man should make the money but what do you do when that money is just not enough. I do not want to lose my home and we have cut back on everything. No cable, no intertainment, no going out, we try not to go anywhere. I have the internet for school and my sanity. I just do not know what to do.

I just can not seem to sleep at night. I have a newer bed and a warm husband, but I still can't sleep. If I have a shot or two I sleep just fine, but if alcohol is not involved just can't do it. Ooh well I will sleep when I die right.