helloneighbor's Journal

i feel the need to make a list of my top 5 priorities.

so i'm going to do so.

number one: Sunny. i'd honestly not make it with the knowledge that he's never coming back. he leaves for logn periods of time without it being his fault, but i always have it in my head that he's going to come back. if i knew he was gone forever i'd be gone forever also. i plan on marring him. and will fight to the death to do so. [i'm speaking in literal terms.]

number two: Katt. she's my best friend. and she can be a handful at times. but she's like my identical twin. we're so much alike in so many ways it's scary. she's had a much worse life than i have had. and she still puts up with me being depressed. i love her for that.

number three: Dancing. i've been in tap, ballet, and jazz with the same teacher since i was in first grade. i adore dancing and i'd go crazy without it. my dance teacher is like my grandmother. i love her to death. i talk to her more than i do my real grandmother. i help with the little classes, helping her teach them dance. with ages 3 to first grade. during the summer i become obsessed and go crazy without having dancing twice a week. i watch the video of the recital a thousand times over. i do our dances we did over and over. this is my tenth year in dance. and i plan on staying in it as long as physically possible.

number four: Technology. i'm obsessed with my laptop. i'm on it constantly. i want to learn how to do everything on the computer. i want to know how to program things. i want to know hwo to read every possible computer language. i want to know how to hack into things in my computer. i want to know how to do literally everything on it. i want to know how everything works and i want to be able to fix things when they're broken. i'd be lost without my laptop. i'd not know what to do with myself. i'm addicted. my computer teacher on a daily basis is asking me to help her with things. or when other kids in my class have questions. i'm the one they ask. i don't get half my work done because half the time i'm helping other people. 

number five: Photography. my camera is my obsession. i never go anywhere without it. i'm constantly taking pictures of anything i possibly can. i don't have too many human subjects to photograph so it's mostly still life that i do. up close so it's hard to tell what it is. i adore photography. i may not be that amazing at it. but i'm still in love with it.

notice how school is no where on that list. what brought this about, was my 10 year dancing plaque. staring at it reading it and thinking about how much i rely on dancing for everything. however sunny and katt are more important than dancing. dancing is the most important non-human thing to me. and that has brought about my list.