Journal Entry for May 15, 2008
i came face to face today with the man that raped me i hadnt laid eyes on him for 13 years and there was so many things id gone through in my mind to …
im 26 years old and want to talk to people that understand.i was raped when i was 15 by a close family friend id known all my life, then married a violent man am now almost divorced with 3 children, had cancer 2 years ago and my son had meningitis last year i am now suffering depression and am struggling to put the past in the past.
as much as i have been through i try to live life to the full i love canoeing, playing with my kids singing and ill pretty much have a go at everything lifes too short and too full of crap to not at least try and enjoy!!
i came face to face today with the man that raped me i hadnt laid eyes on him for 13 years and there was so many things id gone through in my mind to …
what is it with some men asking me why i went through with it and divorced him how could i be so cold?! what does he expect me to do when he hits and …
managed to get 2 hours sleep last night am soooo tired but dont want to close my eyes i can cope just fine if im awake and dont think.
i can't sleep as i cant' close my eyes everytime i do i smell him, hear him its driving me crazy i just want to sleep!!
hey i read your profile and it bought a tear to my eye, i think your very brave lots of love x x x
Maybe you're not on the website any longer. I hope you are so you get this note of Support.
Tiegan, you are a survivor. You left a bad relationship which many women don't do for one reason or another. You left, and now you can work on healing and taking care of your kids. Seeing your attacker and not doing anything isn't wrong or bad, it's just a reaction. Life doesn't give you time to reherse and you did just fine. You didn't do anything violent, so he couldn't respond and possibly hurt you or Gd forbid, get you in trouble for attacking him, that would be insult on top of insult. I'll keep you in my prayers.
Hi Tiegan, I havn't heard from you in some time and I'm praying you're doing alright. Please let me know if talking will help. My sister went through what you've been through and at the time it happened, I was the only one she could talk to about it. I don't know if you're comfortable talking to men, but if I can help with more than prayer, I will be an ear for you
Hello I'm Doin good with recovery Hows life with you!!!