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cas0819's Journal

7-16-08

Wednesday, July 16, 2008 | A General Update story

Today hasn't been too bad. I haven't done much. I have tried to keep myself as calm as possible in order to keep from being in my negative mood.

I seem to have figured myself out. It's like there is a good and a bad inside of me. The good in me wants to live and try to do the right things, but at times she wants to give up because things are getting too hard for her. The bad just wants me to die, she tries her best to control the good in me and sometimes she wins. Sometimes when the good wants me to give up and the bad wants me to die thats when I have my suicidal thoughts. Other times when the good in me gives up the bad is in control and she wants to be a bitch. She is pissed about everything and doesn't give a damn about anyone but here. So do I have a split personality????? I don't know maybe it is just my conscience or something maybe it is more than that, who knows.

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cool you are learning about the good and bad side of you thats a big start there alot to learn cos its how you get better, its like a must believe in the good before we can get the drive and learning on how to fly in a way... life is full of hard times its like know how to walk through the problem before can fly we can through them... so what else are you learn to do ..
.. the suicidal thought can tie you steal the best the thing you have and thats the peace and quiet ... and take away are sleep too
figth with a simple thought and simple plan's you feel better and get better learn to calm the mines eye first if you can cos its true peace in it.... :)

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