MistressDrummer's Journal

I have had time to myself to do a lot of thinking, and basically came to this conclusion. I just have to learn to follow my heart. Learning to do that is really difficult for me, because of everything that happens to me. I know this is something that I have to get better at, but it's so scary for me sometimes that it's like my heart can surprise myself. It's something I can't just put into words, it just happens from the first person that I loved to even discovering I'm bisexual and many other events that have taken place in my life time, and even some I've got a feeling are yet to take place. I just wish in the moment that when I leave here in a bit I have a great time at my boyfriend's family block party, and then maybe somehow find it in my heart to forgive my dad. I love him with all my heart, but he has no idea what he's put me through. In the least I just wish I could ask God for my sake that I can just be able to sleep at night. Life is too short.