Journal Entry for June 8, 2008
Today is a sad time for me. Of course I keep bringing up the past. One thing he said to me was that he didn't consider himself having …

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I am a 50 year old woman married for 31 years. I have been depressed for a long time. I recently found out about an affair my husband had for more than 7 years. I can't seem to cope with the betrail even though it was over 15 years ago. I feel such a fool. I hurt as if it just happened yesterday. I can't seem to move on. I would like to talk to other women who have been through this kind of betrail. I am lost....
Today is a sad time for me. Of course I keep bringing up the past. One thing he said to me was that he didn't consider himself having …
Today when I he gave me the Mother's day card, I read it and it was emotional. You see I never received one like this before. They were …
So sorry that you have now become a member of this club...a club that none of us ever believed we would be in...we all thought that our spouses were not capable of anything like this! And yet, here we are... I hope you will find some help and support on DS.
After being married for 31 years, I found out that my husband had an affair all the the 1980's. During that time and even in the 90,s he verbally abused me. I always thought it was his drinking. His brothers and best friend knew about it all. I am in a state of shock today. That was so stupid not to see it. I don't understand how he could do this without guilt or concious. I am devastated and want answers. I feel that my marriage was just a lie for me. I had my second child during that time and he continued to see her. I know he loved her and made me pay for staying with me.I can't seem to move on. I even want to find this women to find out the truth, because he doesn't remember. i can't sleep eat or function because of the thoughts I have of my past.I want to move on