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I am not sure who I am anymore. I walk around just feeling numb all the time. This is totally opposite to how I used to be. I used to always look at the positives in life and now it just feels like 'what's the point anymore'. You give so much of yourself and end up getting hurt and betrayed. How can others just walk away without a scratch or a conscience whilst I am left feeling like my whole world has fallen apart. Don't know what to do next or where to go. I gave up my career and my life for a man who ended up totally taking advantage of it. Now I have nothing and somehow have to start from square one. It just feels like the older you get, the harder it all is. I don't know if I can keep doing this. Why can't life be simple. What happened to the good people? Not sure where to start really. It sounds pathetic as I feel like I am just moaning. But I am not sleeping at all, when I do sleep I have bad dreams. I am not eating properly and I am constantly tearful. I can't seem to get out of this routine and my motivation levels are really low. I just came out of a really unhealthy relationship. I found out that my partner was a sex addict. I tried to help him through it for six months but he was continuously lying to me. I cannot get over the lies and the deceit and betrayal. I can't get the emails out of my head or the photos that I found on his computer of these other women. They haunt my days and my nights.Any words of support or advice would be very very welcome. I am truly lost. I have read a few people's posts on here so I think I am at the right place to at least start my road to recovery. I HOPE I HOPE I HOPE.