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My name is Evan, and I am a 10th grade student attending a school in carson, CA. I play basketball competitively and am very active. With all these activities, i am still kind of chunky. I have known that i was either gay or bisexual for some time now. I am still in the phase of trying to find that out about myself. I am looking for friends that i can talk to and that can talk to me. I need help straightening out my life. I've had the most trouble coming out to my family, because i don't know what they will think of me, or if i'll lose a very strong relationship with one of my friends. I know that many of them believe that my type of lifestyle decision is against the lords wishes and have told me that they think it's gross, and don't understand how anyone could be like that. Every time i hear this though, i feel hurt, and want to tell the person even more, just to help them understand. Well yeah. That's me! =)
I like many sports, and one of my favorite hobbies is to write. I also like to read. That may make me sound a little nerdy, but oh well. I am a very emotional person, but i am only that way when i am by myself, or when i am writing. Most people, even family members, don't know that I am emotional. When i am with people, i just hold everything in. I try to get a little alone time ever day, so i can sort out all of my thoughts, and get my head on straight. It really helps, you should try it sometime! =)
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Can i kill myself, or is that illegal? I don't know why i feel so horrible, it just hit me. I feel like a big weight has just been put on my …
July 27, 2008 6:19pm
okay, well i i don't know exactly what i feel. It's kindf= of odd to be honest. I realy like shawn, and after our game, i caught myself …
July 21, 2008 5:09pm
Okay, so there is this kid on the basketball team that i am playing on. He is so nice and includes me in everything. Not to mention, he is HOT! I …
I am on the same boat, except I haven't come out yet, because I can already anticipate their reaction.
thanks for the ad :D would like to be friends, i think my family know too but i havnt told them lol and i dont think i will anytime soon
same here dude i try to do it but i cant too many ppl will jugde me...and that sucks
Well im not spending a lot of time with my friends lately its kinda a boring life without them.....and yeah sometimes they does get on ur nerves
so how u doin.....o_O
When i was 10 and kept a journal, i started to write about which guys i liked at school, as well as the girls. I didn't know at the time that this was out of the ordinary, but i now know. I know that many of my friends, that are guys, would look at me very differently and i don't know what i would do without them. I think about guys more than girls, but still have some feelings toward girls. If any of my friends knew, i don't think that they would ever talk to me again.
I have known that i was bi for a little while now, and i have now told 5 people about me. i have had many crushes on guys, and at first i thought that i was gay, because , well just because, but i now realize, and know that i am bisexual. I have to get out my feelings, to someone.
I'm a sophomore, and started three weeks ago. School freaking sucks, and i already am stressing over all the stuff the teachers are having us do. The teachers have even already told us that they are going easy on us right now, so i'm really afraid of what is to come.
I'm not going to comment a lot on this subject, even though it is a very big problem in my life. I know that it is against my beliefs, and that makes me feel really guilty, but i am confused and it makes me feel good, so whatever.
Ummm.. People i know actually look at this profile on the website, and i don't want to go into detail about it. All i can say is that t.v. started corrupting me, and my brother helped it along.
My family has really started to piss me off. They're always telling me about the stuff i HAVE to do because their lazy asses can't do it. They're always making me feel worse about myself. Like i don't feel bad enough already. You need to lose some weight, or you aren't good enough yet. They find some way to make me feel horrible about myself, and i need to talk about it.
I'm a teen, and i think i may be gay.
