so i kinda like this journal thing...i mean you get to write whatever you want. and it doesnt even matter what because i dont think anyone will judge you on here because we all want help and want to help others. also many ppl can relate so no one thinkg your crazy or emo or whatever. so maybe this site isnt so bad after all. maybe its pretty good actually...a release to the bottled up emotions...a reality check to know that your not alone and realize theres others with the same situation or better or worse....a trigger for you to take and remember the advice you give others....a sense of feeling that perhaps you can make it through those days and see how others are better....a place where you get to express how you feel no matter what....regardless i feel a little hope somewhere today and thats a good thing