noideasanymore's Journal

My mother decided to start dating last October. My dad had been dead for a little over two years. Unfortunately she chose a man that I have known for about 8 years and cannot stand. He is not a nice person.

She used to be such a strong, independent woman and now she can't seem to do anything without him. He drives her almost everywhere. She has two vehicles. She only knew him for two months before she practically moved in with him. Her house stands empty right now.

She couldn't even spend three days over Christmas  in Branson with her remaining three kids and their families without lying and hiding the fact that she was calling him like every two hours.

His wife died in September from cancer. They started seeing each other by the end of October. She was barely cold in the ground. When asked why he was with my mom his response was "Well I'm going to be with SOMEONE!" He found the first needy, available female and latched on and we as her kids have no idea what to do.

My mom was one of my best friends until she got involved with him. Now all she does is lie and hide things. I don't trust her anymore. I have no faith in her as my mom or as a good person.

This is killing me. I haven't talked to her in 6 months. We used to talk every day, have lunch on the weekends and just hang out. I feel like my mom is dead. I don't like the woman that she has become and I don't want to know her. I WANT MY MOM BACK from that piece of donkey dung.

I am tired of crying myself to sleep every night. I lost my dad, my brother, my child and now my mom. Life sucks.

 I just want to be content. I don't need to be happy, just content. Is that really too much to ask?