texas279's Journal

I haven't been on in awhile because honestly I have been wanting to put it on the back burner and just think I'm not sick all the time. I go see a doctor today that all the hard cases are sent. Basically was told by 2 doctors they wouldn't do another laparoscopy on me because I have had so many already..... I'm so frustrated and hope today I get some answers and relief from this pain. I hope everyone is doing well and I'll post what happens today later on...

Take care,

Marti

So I'm about done with doctors and "exams" I can't seem to find an answer or the doctor I have doesn't want to admit it is back. I had a lap. last year about this time and endo was removed. For three months I felt great and myself again and it came back full force this time. I can't find a doctor who will do another lap on me until I go through colonoscopy an upper GI (I've already done these two), a small bowel scan, and now a CAT scan. All of this is more time off of work and they haven't found anything just wondering after the CAT scan what is next. I have cried and begged my doctor and others to do another lap on me but can't get anyone that has the balls enough to do it almost like they don't want to be the "one" to find it again! Geez it is there and I'm worried it is growing and going to just get worse wasting all this time on other tests!

I know I have good insurance but now it seems like I'm being taking advantage of it. I stopped taking lupron because it wasn't working but figured the doctor might put me on a bc? I just want to feel like I did for those three months again we are planning a family vacation and I really want to be able to enjoy it not suffer through it!!! Just getting a little down on myself and depressed about all of this and to the point some days I just want to walk into the hospital and tell them to figure it out but I know they would just give me a shot for the pain and just tell me to see my doctor the following day. I'm so tired, stressed, and sad that anyone should live like this and no one should have to.

So went to the GI had an colonoscopy (yuck) and whatever they call it when they go down your throat as well so got it from both ends. GUESS WHAT!!! Wow what a shocker they found NOTHING! Big waste of 2 days off of work and feeling like crap! But here is more the GI doctor doesn't think he is done with me yet! He wants me to swallow a small camera that takes pictures while it travels your everything to make sure there isn't anything wrong with the middle part! I understand I have insurance and it is pretty good but geez I am not something they can just use to "explore" or run a million test on. I AM HUMAN! I am a person in pain. I have been diagnosed with endometriosis before in the lap. I had last summer so why wouldn't this same pain I experienced last year not be the same thing? I think I'm about ready to go in and tell my doctor to open me up or I'll do it for him and he can fix what I tear up later! I even went to a what I thought was a specialist and he was of little help and said I needed to see a general surgeon (since he already found out I was seeing a GI) to see if it wasn't a hernia! I'm almost at the point to say screw it put me back on depo provera at least than I was pain free and could enjoy sex... (sorry just frustrated)!