Erin1975's Journal

Forgot to mention my annual checkup at my OB/GYN experience yesterday.  I went to a new Dr. within the same practice because my former physician left the area.  I explained to her my whole experience w/ my RE and how I was at a crossroads and not sure which direction to go next.  I explained to her my fear of IVF; not only cost but the whole process just freaks me out.  I have to get back in the "mode" and for some reason, I can't snap myself out of it.  She asked if my RE ever put me on Metformin and I told her no but that my BF just took Metformin with success - she's 11 weeks pregnant w/ her 2nd child.  She explained that this med is used in Diabetic patients because it's related to insulin processing.  She suggested I get another baseline test of all my hormones as well as insulin and thyroid activity.  I have the script and I think I'm going to go get the test done on Monday.  She said she would call me to discuss and then possibly start me on Metformin.  She didn't know if my RE would find it fruitful to do this step but I think it's worth it - even because I haven't had any intention of starting back w/ injectables at this point.  So, maybe it's a start in a new direction even though I feel I might be back at square one.

And not to mention, even though I expect to see a bunch of pregnant women there, it really is much harder to sit on the exam table, awaiting the doctor's arrival and here the sound of a baby's heartbeat on a monitor in the next office.  It took every ounce of my energy to either 1) not break down right then and there or 2) put my clothes back on and walk straight out of the office.  What a sweet sound that I hope to hear someday ...

Until next time ...